Another Boy Without A Sharper Knife (Kellic)

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

*Vic POV*

"So," I asked nervously, trying to get Kellin's attention. He was talking to a short red head who I vaguely remember being named Matty. They both stopped talking and turned to me. "What do we do all day?" I asked. The line was slowly getting shorter leaving only a few people ahead of us.

"Masterbate," Kellin said without any hesitation. Alex listened in and snorted, nodding in agreement.

Matty nudged Kellin and glared at Alex. I just rolled my eyes and crossed my arms. Are these guys ever serious? Why are they even here? I filed that away to ask later.

"We go to a few therapy sessions, play cards, draw, and watch movies. That's honestly about it," Matty said, sighing. Okay this place officially has gotten worse.

"Can we at least listen to music?" I asked, thinking about my iPod they confiscated. It had headbuds and the guard went on and on saying you could strangle yourself with them. Way to plant ideas bro. I can't go without music though. It's the air in my lungs and sometimes I honestly think I need it more than oxygen. Over dramatic? Maybe.

"There's a station here that plays alternative music. It's basically what we all listen to," Matty explained. "If you're into that stuff." I nodded. I defiantly am not into any top 40s music. Leave me in a room with a Blink 182 and Green Day album I'm happy.

"And!" Kellin explained dramatically turning to us as Alex walked away with his medication. "There will be no Blood On The Dance Floor played in my presence. Is that understood?"

I snorted and waved my hand, dismissing his worry. "Trust me man, I wouldn't dream of it."

He smiled and nodded, stepping forward to get his pills. He took them and crushed the water cup, throwing it in the nearby bin. "Then we're going to get along perfectly." He winked and walked away towards the others who pooled around the tv.

Matty stepped forward for his pills so I hung back quietly. Trying to think everything over. "So," Matty said, turning to me. "Any more questions?"

I thought quickly. "Yeah, actually. Rules? I kinda zoned out on the nurse before." Matty smiled knowingly.

"Okay, let me give you a run down on everything." I took my pills quickly and followed Matty who walked in the opposite direction of the guys. We both slumped down against the wall as he started to go over everything.

"It's best if you go to all the groups, it will get you out of here faster. You need to eat or your not allowed to hang out with everyone else. Um, if you even so much as say that you want to kill yourself they'll put you on suicide watch which basically means they follow you everywhere even into the bathroom. Austin was just on it. Not a good time."

I looked around the corner to see the really tall boy slumped back in his chair. The small ginger boy sitting close to him.

"No running in the halls but we are allowed to like pace or what not. It's the only way to get exercise," Matty explained. He scratched his head, trying to think of more. "Oh!! No sexual relations with another resident. That's a big no no. Kellin is the only one who's ever gotten away with it but I think that's just because he's a sneaky bastard." Matty chuckled.

"Um," I said awkwardly, looking around the corner to see Kellin smiling at the tv screen. They just turned on the movie. "Who did Kellin have sex with?"

"Just this guy named Craig. He just left a few days ago actually." I felt a nervous pit in my stomach. I don't know why but I pushed it away. Seriously Vic, what is wrong with you??

"But yeah that's all I can really think of! Everyone here is chill. Don't look so nervous, you'll get along fine." Matty have my knee a reassuring squeeze as he got up.

"Yo! Come on you flaming homos! Were starting Star Wars and Tony won't wait any longer!" Alex shouted, gesturing to the screen. Matty chuckled and pulled me up.

"Um, I think I'm actually going to go to sleep. Thanks though." Matty nodded and walked away leaving me to walk into my room alone. Today has been horrible. A true shock to the system.

I closed the bathroom door softly and got into the shower, slipping my clothes off slowly.

As the water ran over me I felt my muscles relax. I instantly looked down to my bandaged wrists and began to cry softly. It didn't last though as it turned into outright sobs. Why the fuck did this happen? I was so close, so close! Now I'm stuck in this hell hole.

I calmed myself down, willing myself to stop shaking. All I have to do is be good, get out of here, and try again.

That's the plan and I'll be damned if it doesn't work.

A/N you guys should seriously comment even if it's to say it sucks! I just want to know if anyone is reading. I'm enjoying writing this so far and I promise it will pick up. Get ready for se action ;) okay comment!!