Another Boy Without A Sharper Knife (Kellic)

Chapter 28

A/N sorry for all the updates so quickly D:

VIC POV

Mike and I stood in front of the bathroom mirror in our suits. Neither of us had worn them since our grandpop passed away so they didn't exactly fit too well.

"I look ridiculous," Mike huffed, pulling at his too short sleeves and placing his hat on. I tried to get him to not wear it to the mass but he brushed my comments away.

It's been 3 days since we found out the news about Alan. It's an understatement to say that we were all a mess. Austin has been under constant watch though, hanging with some of the guys during the day and under his parents supervision at night. So far he hasn't tried to do anything but he hasn't stopped crying. I don't know how he had it all in him but it continued like a waterfall.

I looked down at my cellphone seeing that it was almost noon. "Fuck Mike we got to go," I said quickly, dragging my still scowling brother out of the bathroom. When we got downstairs we were greeted with our sympathetic looking mamma.

"Be safe boys and call if you need anything," she said, kissing our foreheads. I just gave her a quick nod before pushing Mike out the door and into my car.

I don't know if I'm ready for this.

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The church was filled with people. I didn't know most of them but I did spot Alex and Jack in the front so I headed over to them, sitting down next to Alex in the pew while Mike went over to talk to Jack, both of them whispering under their breath. I know Mike didn't really know Alan so well but he insisted on coming and sitting here with me as emotional support.

I, unlike Austin, don't really have that much crying left in me. At least I don't think. I let it all out last night sobbing into my pillow.

"Can I sit here?" I looked up to find a nervous looking Kellin.

"Of course," I whispered just as the priest was ready to start. It randomly and quickly flashed across my mind that Kellin hasn't been acting like his usual confident self. I really must have fucked up.

I looked around and saw Austin sitting with his and Alan's family. Tony was a few seats away with Rian, Zack, and Matty while Oli was in the back clutching onto his girlfriends hand. They all had grave looks on their faces.

I turned back to the priest as he rambled on about how great and full of life Alan was. It was just so generic, like he was reading off of a card and just putting Alan's name in the blanks. A little bit after the priest's talk a high school friend of Alan's named Tino got up to talk but he was reduced to tears halfway through unable to continue. Everyone gave him a sympathetic look as Alan's mother broke down. He walked past her and leaned down to give her a hug before heading back to his seat.

"I believe Austin, Alan's boyfriend would like to say a few words." It quickly passed through my mind that it was interesting that he was called his boyfriend seeing as we were in a Catholic Church. Props to the priest.

I was pretty shocked about Austin getting up to speak seeing as he's been crying and breaking down. I don't know how he's going to make it through a eulogy. He did get up though and make his way to the podium, smoothing out the crinkled paper in his hands.

"Uh I don't really know where to start," he mumbled, looking down to the paper and not to the crowed of at least 150 people in front of him. "I guess you could say that Alan and I didn't meet at the best place or time. We crossed each other's paths in a psychiatric hospital after both of us uh... went through a hard time." Austin let out a shaky breath and closed his eyes quickly before continuing.