Another Boy Without A Sharper Knife (Kellic)

Chapter 16

"Fuck Kellin," I groaned, pushing my body up against his while he kissed down my neck. We were in his cramped bathroom while the guys got ready to watch a movie. Kellin was supposed to be under supervision because of the whole pill issue but they were short staffed today. I still was aware that a nurse will be coming around to count heads in a few minutes. I was too lost in the way Kellin was pressing against me though. It felt fucking amazing.

"Yeah?" he breathed, going back up to my lips. He bit the lower one and I let out a soft moan. He really doesn't know the effect he has on me.

I heard the door to the room open but Kellin didn't move away from me. The way he was kissing me made it really hard to stay quiet.

"Okay homos, I know you're in the bathroom doing it but it's Vic's last night and we all want to watch a movie together so I'm not leaving until you come out," we heard Alex say, standing close to the bathroom door.

"Ignore him," Kellin whispered, his hands running down my sides to my hips. I gently pushed him away.

"Coming," I called to Alex as I straightened my clothes up.

"I'm sure you are," Alex chuckled as Kellin rolled his eyes. He pushed open the door and glared at a smirking Alex.

"I hate you," Kellin said, playfully pushing the tall boy aside.

"Yeah, yeah just come on. I saved you guys a spot and the others are getting impatient." I nodded at Alex as I followed him and Kellin out the door and into the tv room.

"What are we watching?" I asked, looking to the movie trailer flashing across the screen.

"Horrible Bosses," Austin said, turing around to look at us. "Because who in here doesn't need a good laugh?"

~*~

I was wide awake as the movie started to come to an end. Everyone else looked like they were drifting asleep. Matty and Tony even left awhile ago, too tired to watch the rest. It was around midnight and I really couldn't stand the nagging thought that said I would probably be up all night. I tend to not sleep when I'm nervous and I guess I'm just anxious to go home. I kept the thought of my talk with my dad about the other hospital a few hours away in the back of my mind. I definitely don't want to go to another one of these places. Anyway, it just felt like I wouldn't get a lot of sleep tonight.

The movie ended a little while later and everyone said their goodnights. "See you tomorrow Vic," Alex said, sauntering to his room.

"Yeah have a goodnight guys." I wasn't feeling well at all. I don't know if it was because of the anxiety I was feeling but I felt my whole mood drop.

"See you tomorrow Kels," I said to the boy standing next to me. He gave me a questioning look as if to say 'you okay?' I just have him a quick nod before walking into my room with Oli.

"You excited to get out tomorrow mate?" Oli asked, jumping in bed. I got into my own bed, pulling the covers over me.

"Um I guess," I mumbled before turning on my side clearly showing that I didn't want to talk about it. I could feel Oli staring at me but he must have given up because a minute later the lights went off sending us into darkness.

So tomorrow will be here soon and what will I do? I'll go home to my family and have to put up with them asking if I'm okay and treating me like a fragile vase that could crack easily. They'd probably start to walk on egg shells around me. Am I ready for this? Am I really going to be okay? I felt tears flooding my eyes as I let them drop silently. My future is so unclear right now. It's like I lost faith in everything.

As I curled into a tight ball listening to Oli's deep sleep breathing I heard the door squeak open. I didn't even bother to turn around and look. They were probably just taking count. At night they at least only come around once every half hour. Usually I'd just roll over and wave to the nurse to show them that I'm clearly not dead but today I just stayed still. A second later though I felt someone else's weight on the bed, sinking the mattress down a little. The fuck?