Another Boy Without A Sharper Knife (Kellic)

The World Tour- Bonus

A/N hey guys! So in honor of the world tour and the fact that it has been one year since my suicide attempt I decided to write this little chapter cause I miss this story so much. Hope you enjoy!

2 years later:

"Vic, seriously hurry your ass up!" My younger brother Mike whined. I gave him an exasperated sigh but picked myself up from the chair anyway.

I was exhausted. I have been since this tour started and it's only been about 3 weeks. Don't get me wrong I love seeing the fans smiling and singing my words back to me and even meeting them it's just that I have a lot on my mind all the time.

Tonight is the anniversary of my suicide attempt 2 years ago. I have to say it's a miracle I'm still alive and the past two years have been far from easy. I've thought about suicide almost constantly but I have the best support group ever to hold me up. I talk to Alex and Oli daily about music. They're actually both still in their original bands touring the world. Matty seems to be inseparable from his soon to be wife and Austin is at home. He hasn't fully recovered from what happened with Alan. I don't think he ever will.

Since all of us escaped the hospital he's been back their twice. Now we at least have been out long enough so that we could visit him when he slips up. We of course have all stayed by his side, Alan meant a lot to us too.

"Vic, seriously. We're going on now." I nodded as the supporting band left the stage, giving the enormous crowd one more wave. We aren't the biggest band in the world... yet but I plan to make that happen. Watch out one direction.

All of a sudden I felt the energy of the crowd take over me as I jogged out onto the stage and took in the smiling faces. I gave them all a bright smile even though I felt like cracking inside. I just have to remind myself that I am here for them. I'm 99% sure there is at least one person out there in the crowd who feels like I did or even do now. I NEED to give them their hour or so of freedom. Their great escape. Their only retreat from the shitty days that we all have.

"Hey guys! We're Pierce The Veil and we love you so fucking much! Hope you're ready to jam with us!" I yelled to the crowd as they screamed back. I nodded my head at the guys as we entered into our first song Hell Above.

Everything was going smoothly, the crowd was loving it and so was I until we got to Hold On Till May. It's one of my favorite songs to preform but tonight I felt like I was going to break down sobbing during it. Mike has been bugging me to play it acoustic the last few nights to switch it up a little so as they walked side stage I pulled up my chair and grabbed my guitar.

"She sits up high, surronded by the sun..." I felt everything cut through my body as I was reminded of the day laying on the bathroom floor. The day I went to First Hospital and had so much happen to me and even change me. Beau entered my mind quickly, I did write this song about him, but I tried to hold it all in pretty unsucessfully though.

I was getting to the hard part of the song, the part that I knew I was going to cry on. I felt tears start to push on my eyes and the crowd seemed to notice as they got deathly quiet. I let out a deep breath and went to sing as best I could but before I had the chance someone else did it for me.

"If I were you I'd put that away"

I looked over to see Kellin walk out on stage, mic in hand. He gave me a small smile and made his way over, kneeling down in front of me so all I could see was his face. He quickly brushed the tears away that forced themselves out.

"You're just wasted and thinking bout the past again. Darling you'll be okay"

He sang my words to me so beautifully. I let him finish the song, afraid that I would still break down. After he was done the crowd erupted so loudly that I could barely hear. Hearing his voice and feeling his hand in mine made me realize that I might actually be okay.

"You good?" Kellin whispered in my ear as the crowd calmed down.

'Yeah, thanks so fucking much Kells." He gave me a bright smile and a kiss on the cheek before leaving the stage.

Me and the boys got through the rest of the set and finished with King For A Day which is always a crowd pleaser. I like to get the crowd amped up before they go home so they can feel it for a few days. Nothing seems to be worse than post concert depression. That's what the fans say at least. Plus I mean we just found out a few days ago that the song went gold which really made me excited. My music is changing people. The words I write down on paper are making a diffrence in kids lives. That's just... wow.

With one last wave and shout of thank you we ran off the stage to the back room. I walked in first, wiping the sweat off my forehead.

"Great show guys," I commented, turning on the lights. I wasn't expecting to almost have a heart attack but expect the unexpected I guess. All of a sudden a bunch of people popped up yelling "Suprise!"

"Fuck!" I shouted, kinda covering my eyes out of momentary fear before laughing it off.

"Happy two years of making it out alive Viccy!" Alex shouted, waving his hands around, accidently hitting his boyfriend Jack in the face.

"Yeah mate you did it," Oli smiled at me alongside Hannah, his fiance now. Austin was in the room too, a faint smile on his face. I felt the urge to go to him so I did, embracing him in a hug.

"You doing okay?" I whispered to him before pulling back. He just smiled at me rolling his eyes.

"Yes Vic I am. Today is your day though so don't worry about me. You're such a mom." Austin said as Matty laughed beside him. I just rolled my eyes and gave him a fake glare before walking away.

As I went back to the center of the room, deciding who to talk to, I felt somone lace thair arm around my waist. See?" Kellin whispered in my ear. "You're loved babe. We're going to make it." I could hear the smile on his lips as he kissed behind my ear.

With his simple actions and words all the worrying melted away. Worrying about the past and the future left me because looking around the room and feeling the love of my life's arm around me I knew I'd be okay