A New Beginning (Last book for Change your Life Series)

Chapter One

2 months ago

Katie's P.O.V

Pathetic. Depressed. Myseterious. Usless. Not a good mother. Horrible wife. Let's everyone down. Lies. Many more things that describe me now. It's my fault I lost Niall. "All my fault." I whispered hearing the cries of our kids down stairs as the boys and the girls help try to comfort them, as a mom I'm laying in bed just listen to the sound of our crying children. Why me?

Did I do anything to deserve this? OH yeah, It's my fault. I killed Niall. I let him go with a few friends to kill simon for our children. Did he succeed? Yes. Did he make it out ok? No. He's dead.

I heard a knock on my door as I stayed quiet, I locked it because I really didn't want to talk or see anoyine. Let alone, I don't want them to see me in this state.

"Kaite, It's Liam. Please come out, your kids miss you, you have been in your room for a week, not saying that It's wrong, but it is. I know Niall passed away a week and a hlaf ago, but you have to keep moving forward, he would love for you to move on and be happy." He said.

Liam was right, I needed to find some one else to take care of the kids with me, but who? I like my friends and family now, they're who I trust to handle my four kids.

"N-Not now please leave me alone." I said my voice cracking from being to upset. I heard Liam sigh as I listened to his foot steps disapating down the stairs.

I looked at the clock to see it was only one in the afternoon. I need to eat, yet again I don't want anybody to see me like this. I guess it's time to walk down stairs.

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"Please forgive me?" Harry said thinking it was his fault he let Niall go in the car. I sat on the couch not saying a word, I didn't want to talk about it, I hate crying infront of people.

"Katie..." Harry whispered as I looked at him with tears in my eyes. Well so much for not crying infront of people.

Harry frowned and sat next to me pulling me closer to him as I just balled my eyes out into his chest. "It's my fault Harry, I should have made him gone home, he could have been here with me and the kids, and wecould have moved some where else." I cried harder.

Harry rubbed my back trying to talk to me soothingly, but all I could hear is my uncontrolable sobs. I couldn't do this anymore, I'm a mess, a mees who needs her husband back.

"He's safe now." He whispered. And Harry was right, Niall was safe, he was looking down at us, on our family to protect us.

"Thanks Harry." I whispered as Liam put the kids in bed.

"Well they're all in bed and thier doors are shut, so now us boys need to go to work, will be back tomorrow morning." Liam smiled hugging me as I wiped my eyes nodding.

"Thanks for everything you guys." I whispered to them as they nodded leaving my house.

I fixed my self dinner as I brought it upstairs in my room sitting on the bed watching tv, which happens to be Niall's favorite show.

I smiled a little as I relaxed watching tv and eating my supper in peace.

I sighed as I was done and looked on my dresser to find a note. I raised and eyebrow and got up walking over to it to see Niall's hand writing.

Dear Kaite.

Things happen for a reason, right? Well, we met for a reason, and I knew once I saw you, you were going to be mine for ever. I love you so much Katie. If I don't make it out alive at Simons place, just know I killed him for you and our family. Make sure Lillie get''s my sweater she loves. Let Bri get my snapback, let Bella get my guitar, and definitly let Jake get my rugby shrt and ball. You know I will always be with you baby. Ohh and Katie.. It's been a year now since we have been married and I wanted to ask you again. Will you be my Mrs. Horan?

 

 

I looked to the side of the paper with a box and a little ring on it. I smiled as I took it putting it on and walking out to our balcony and looking at the night sky.

"Yes, I will be your Mrs. Horan again." I whispered looking up at the sky, to see a shooting star go by.