Seeking Love *completed*

A Battle with in

I broke our kiss and stepped back.

"Why did you do that?" I breathlessly asked

Zander tilted his head in confusion. "Haven't you been wanting to just like I have?"

I ignored his question because I have been wanting to kiss him as well. Even though I knew it was wrong I enjoyed his kiss and I hated myself for it.

Finally.
What am I saying! I'm married.

My head swirled and I began to panic. I pushed by Zander and began to run back to the house. I could hear Zander calling for me but I couldn't turn around. I needed to get the the safety of my bedroom and clear my head.

Zander POV

Damn it. I knew I shouldn't have kissed her yet. I couldn't hold back anymore

I watched her run into the house with the sweet taste of her lips still lingering on mine. The moment I got short with her I regretted it. She looked to me to help her and to feel better. I wasn't planning to kiss her when I came to look for her. It just happened in the moment. Her eyes went wide with amazement, but she kissed me back. I want to give her some time to process what happened then talk to her. I have to know what she's thinking.

Edith POV

I spent the rest of the day in my room. I didn't want to confront Zander yet about what happened. I also knew I couldn't hide forever.

"Edie?"

There was a soft knock on the door. I didn't answer it thinking it was Zander. There was another knock that was a bit louder before the door swung open. Relief washed over me as I saw Larc standing in the doorway.

"Are you okay?"

His eyes were filled with concern as he took my hands. I simply nodded my head and leaned into his chest. A single tear fell down my face at the thought of hurting this man. Even though he could be a monster, he was kind.

"Let's spend the rest of the afternoon together. What do you say? Sounds good?"

Larc leaned his forehead against mine as I nodded my head in agreement. We spent the rest of the day cuddled on the couch watching Netflix and eating junk food. For that moment I forgot about all the things he's done. In that moment he was the kind Larc I knew and loved. I was enjoying the company of my husband so much that I didn't realize Zander hadn't came into the livingroom all day. I was thankful for his absence. I wasn't ready to talk about what happened outside.

For the rest of that week Larc managed to put the liquor bottle down and keep it down. I knew it was a matter of time before he'd start back drinking but I was a fool and made myself believe he was done for good with it.

I enjoyed every moment of sober Larc and all the places he took me. I felt like the first time in three years that my husband and I truly expressed our love for one another.

Two weeks later

I was nervously playing with the earring dangling in my ear when Larc climbed down the stairs.

"Ready?" His eyes scanned over me with satisfaction.

I simply nodded my head and went to the door. It was dinner night with his parents and I was nervous about how he would act tonight. The last time we went out to eat he became so drunk he busted my lip in the car because I didn't answer his question quick enough. I didn't want to do or say anything that might put him in a bad mood. I felt as if I was walking on eggshells around him.