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2. Circles

I got home so late last night I forgot to change out of my interview dress. And yes, the dress I spilled coffee all over, that one. Then, in the morning I woke up so late that I didn't have time to take a shower so I could still smell the sticky coffee on my legs. I packed a small lunch in one of those classic brown paper bags and left for school.

When I arrive, it's just another day of college. Girls checking their hair and makeup in the bathroom, and douchey guys hitting on those girls. There are people making out in the hallways pushed up against the lockers, and people sitting all alone at lunch. Teachers give shitty lessons to a shitty group of immature freshman and then assign a years worth of homework for one night. I watch as girls constantly try to impress the guys and wear the minimum amount of clothing required. I'm surprised the floors aren't stained red with blood because there is a lot of stabbing each other in the back going on.

The worst is watching a girl get picked on by the "popular" girls who think they are the best of the best. But even worse, is being that girl getting picked on. I'm that girl.

I'm pushed around and made fun of because I don't show enough skin. I don't care if it is 70 degrees out and sunny, I'm wearing pants and there is nothing they can do about it. I'm laughed at because I don't have a boyfriend and no one likes me. But it's not like I would want to be friends with any of them anyway.

It's like this everyday. My life is on constant repeat, going around and around again in circles. Eventually I'm going to be so dizzy that I just won't be able to think straight anymore. Only the lord knows what will happen on that day...

I walk as slow as possible to every class, especially my English class. Today we are each presenting a short poem-like idea to the whole class and I just know that everyone is going to to laugh at my idea.

I sit down in the back of the room just as the bell goes off, perfect timing. I remain there for almost the whole class listening to student after student stand up, walk to the front, read off their hand, and then walk back to their seat to sit down. For a moment I thought I wouldn't have to go considering there is only five minutes of class left and still several other people waiting to go. But I must have jinxed myself because the professor called me as soon as the thought crossed my mind. I slowly stand up, fighting the urge of gravity, and walk to the front of the room. When I finally reach the front I turn around and begin to speak from memory.

"We are all taught 'a circle's round'

like our planet Earth.

But we are also taught

that a 'circle has no end'

all from a well known childhood song.

So one of these concepts must be wrong...

because the way I see it,

humans are treating this planet so terribly

that it is eventually going to have to

come to an end..."

After standing there for what seems like a year looking around at all of the blank faces, sleeping students, and texting girls I walk back to my seat, pull out my phone to check for any emails from the photography woman and put on my backpack to walk out the door just as the bell rings.

*** I hope everyone got the 'childhood song' reference to the song "Make new friends, but keep the old! One is silver and the other's gold! A circle's round, it has no end that's how long I want to be your friend!" Vote and keep reading! Thanks ***