Princess Can Fight |✓

Chapter 30: It doesn't get any normal-er than this.

"Austin!" I gasped as I sat up. Tears streamed down my cheeks in long, tired streams. I was unable to comprehend reality for a few moments before I managed to calm my heartbeat down.

I shook my head and told myself that it was all a nightmare.

Even though I knew it was just mildly distorted reality playing over and over again in my head.

I noticed Austin's body lying close to mine. His hand still held mine and I heard him murmur something in his sleep.

Why was I doing this to him? Why was I trying so hard to hurt him when none of this was his fault.

And why was it so fucking easy for me to hurt him? Why did it not feel wrong to use him?

His body was soft, and tired. He wasn't prepared for this. He couldn't protect himself.

He was here because he had no choice. He trusted me. He did everything he could to make me feel better today. And I was just going to break the poor guy further.

I didn't feel guilty for it either. It was what I had to do. It was just what I had to do.

I let go of his hand and got off the bed. I got out of the room, I couldn't stay in the same room as him anymore. I was disgusted by myself and looking at him didn't make me feel any better.

I needed water.

"So I'm not the only one having trouble sleeping, huh?" I found Spencer sitting at the kitchen counter, his head was resting on the counter.

"What is it with you guys and not wearing sufficient clothing?" I shook my head glancing over his almost naked body.

"I was hot, didn't realise I'd be seeing you up so late." He smiled. "Hold on, I'll put something on if it's making you uncomfortable--"

"It's alright, it's nice to see someone with a pretty much normal body."

"Yeah, working out isn't really my thing." He shrugged.

"You know, I'm glad you're here. I'm glad someone almost normal is here."

"Normal? You have no idea what you're talking about! It doesn't get any normal-er than this." He smirked and pointed to himself.

"I always thought I craved adventure but I don't think adventure could ever make me feel the way a tiny hint of normalcy does." I took a seat next to him.

"And for now, normalcy you shall have!"

I laughed. He was cute. He really was.

"So why aren't you sleeping?" He asked.

"Nightmare." I bit my lip. "You?"

"Honestly? I'm just bored. And maybe a little homesick."

"Bored?"

"Yeah. There's really nothing for me to do here and my roommates are no fun at all. I never thought I'd say this but I even miss school a little, just a little."

"And you say you're normal?" I snorted.

"As normal as they come." He sighed. Like he was almost disappointed?

"Do you regret finding us?" I had to ask. He didn't even know what he was getting himself into. He was just trying to find his friends.

He shrugged.

"I mean, it's not what I expected their big secret to be but it's alright I guess. Brad's a fucking badass with serious issues, Ace likes stabbing people and Austin's just weirdly fucked up." He didn't seem bothered by any of it? He just accepted everything for what it was. I couldn't even say he was wrong because he had managed to essentially describe who they all were?