DON'T LET ME GO

chapter 9

For all the time i knew Carmen Del Rosso i never once thought i'd call her a friend less even be this excited to see her, we were both in NYC and we finally could have that friendly date we talked about, needless to say the moment i arrived into the restaurant the flashlights blinded me, paparazzi were shouting and asking if i knew Carmen was there also, am i having dinner with her, are we together....

Although my vision was blurry from the flashlight attack i just went through, i saw her as soon as i got inside the restaurant. Gosh the woman is gorgeous, how did i even think for a second that i could be a match to her in the showbiz, her blond hair was silky, her skin radiate light and those hypnotizing grey eyes speak to me from far calling me into her orbit, her body was curvy in all the right places and her black tight dress was huging each and everyone of those curves, a golden nickless hanged from her long neck dangling between her breasts calling for more attention to her cleavage. As i walked towards her, her smile got wider and warmer and as soon as i stood in front of her she took me in her arms and huged me so tight i actually felt crushing into her and becoming one, the perfum on her neck was mind dizzling that i lost notion of time and space and i wasnt sure how long we were into each others arms until she let go of me and swayed back to where she was seated.

I sat few inches from her on the semi circular couch, we just looked into each others eyes smilling not knowing what to say for a minute or two until she finally broke the silence

-it is so nice to see you without you wanting to kill me
-oh is that how you want to start this evening?
-absolutly not...

Through dinner Carmen was telling me all sort of stories about her family, her dogs which on her own words are the love of her life and the funny weird things that happen to her off stage whenever she's performing, she was interested in knowing tons of things about me and surprisingly it was so easy to share with her what i wouldnt share with alot of people, i would catch her eyes checking me everytime i look away from her or fixating her look into mine whenever i look back. By dessert time we were so laid back that her hand fell smoothly on top of mine on the couch, i looked at her surprised and pulled my hand saying:

-are you looking for an other scandal?

She instantly pulled her hand away and i instantly felt stupid for saying that so i just turned a bit more towards her, pulled both of her hands and safely secured them on my lap my hands on top hiding that small embrace under the table which made her smile.
She has the most wonderful smile, it's like the warmth you feel under the sunrays on a december morning.

-am gonna need one of those hands to eat my sorbet before it melts.

In a teasing way i let go of her hand and said
-but they're mine now.

The rest of the evening was as warm and intimate as it started until it was time to leave, honestly i didnt want to but there was not enough hours in one evening for me to have enough of her beautiful existence.
We left the restaurant together and before we each climbed into our respective cars the paparazzi went crazy snaping their pictures of us saying goodbye.
The moment my car drove away, i picked my phone and texted her.

*few months ago if someone would've ever told me i'd enjoy myself this much in your company i'd laugh at them.

CARMEN🤗
*i am glad you enjoyed
*i had fun myself

Typing....
I wait eager for what she has to say...

*and if few months ago someone would've told me that you would accept to have dinner with me and enjoy it i would laugh at them.

LAKE.J
*🤗

CARMEN🤗
*what is that emoji btw

LAKE.J
*a hug

CARMEN🤗
*OHHH jennifer lake are you giving me a hug?
* 😀

LAKE.J
*i am giving myself a hug from you

I wasnt very sure if i should send what i wrote after but i did anyway

LAKE.J
*i liked that hug you gave me i want more
*and
*i liked holding your hands

She red my texts but she didnt reply, i was feeling uneasy, why isnt she saying anything and why did i say those things but most importantly why did i feel those things i said i feel. I was getting ready to get to bed when she finally texted back

CARMEN🤗
*would it be misplaced if i say i wanted to hug you all that time you were close

LAKE.J
*no...
*maybe.. but no
*i dont know

CARMEN🤗
* goodnight beautiful

LAKE.J
*night
*😘

I went back to LA after that night, Carmen was heading to Paris for a concert. She was busy but she always made sure to check on me, send those cute messages and i suddenly started sending her pictures everytime we talk to which she always replied with hearts.