DON'T LET ME GO

Chapter 24

Aparently mum has won the fight, it's so loud in here, and they're moving me a lot, stop moving me please. I'm spinning. I can hear her talking to me:

- Don't you worry baby, we're going home.

Mum, tell them to stop moving me it hurts, i am in pain please stop. Sometimes i thank god for coma, the pain gets so unbearable at times that i space out. They keep puncturing my skin, i can feel them opening my eyes and forcing light into them, sometimes i feel something wet and warm going through my body and with every move i am in pain. Why can't they know i am here, i am hurt and scared and they can't help me, and Carmen, i only feel better when she's around but i didn't hear her lately. Did Edward managed to stop her from coming? Did she go home already and forgot about me? She doean't like to fight for a maybe after all, and this is the biggest maybe of my life... Maybe i'll wake up from this nightmare maybe not.

Well at least now everyone speaks english, hellooooo i am here, get me out!

-Mr Lake, the good news is Jennifer condition is stable but after 2 months of coma we can't really know when or if she'll ever wake up.
-My baby girl is strong she's gonna pull through, i know she will.
- I wanted to speak to you about an incident that happened yesterday.
-What? Something wrong with Jenny?
-No, no nothing of such, but there was an altercation between Miss Del Rosso and Mr Fogerlman.
-Edward?
-Yes, we have to keep a healthy enviroment for Miss lake to recover and...
- Don't worry Doctor i'll make sure Carmen doen't visit again.

Dad! Dad, don't do that i need her, i need her here dad please.

- Emmm, Mr Lake i think Jenny would won't to have Carmen around.

Thank god for Elisabeth, thank you Ezy, dad just listen to her.

- I think i know what would my daughter want.
- Sir with all due respect, Jenny loved Carmen, i can promise you she's the only person Jennifer would want here.
- She almost KILLED HER.

How many times should i tell you IT WAS MY FAULT.

-Hello
-What are you doing here.
-Mr Lake i just wanted to check on Jenny.
-Didn't you do enough already, please leave, my daughter is in danger because of you.

I don't want her to leave, Ezy is right she's the only one i want here, Carmen stay, don't go Carmen, don't go...

Something so close to me just started beeping, my dad is asking the doctor what's going on, the doctor asking everyone to leave and then someone held my hand. It's her, it's Carmen. She didn't leave. Ah i love you, can you hear me? i love you Carmen and i'm sorry, i'm sorry.

Suddenly i can't feel her hand, she doesn't know how sorry i am.
Again the beeping what's going on?

Now the doctor is shouting, aparently i'm getting agitated as she said, but no i'm not i just want Carmen here next to me!

-Code blue, code blue....

I still don't understand, what's wrong? Where is Carmen?
She's here i can hear her, she's calling my name, i'm calling her but i can't make my voice heard

- She's stabilising, everyone please go out...

No, no, i want her here. The beeping again what is this. It's frustrating. Just bring me Carmen then everyone can leave.
There is a lot of noises and moving and touching going on, again with the mask! I don't want to sleep JUST BRING ME BACK CARMEN.

-She's responding to her surounding, some coma patients experience agitations when....
-She want's Camren with her.

Yes, yes Ezy tell them, be my voice, tell them i love her, tell them i blong to her, tell her i forgive her, tell her i am sorry. Please tell her i'm sorry.

-Miss Del Rosso can you come to the bed side please.
-This is ridiculous.

Someone tell my father to stay out of it. Yes, come to my bed side, hold my hand, tell me you forgive me, tell me you love me, tell me you'll wait for me and you won't let me go.

Everytime i check back into this weird reality of mine again i find her. She never left my side, thanks to my smart assistant and my "code blue" agitations. Somehow my Doctor made a connection between me not breathing and Carmen leaving the room. I should fake a code blue everytime she think about leaving my side.
How unfair is this life though? I hated this woman for years, all i wanted was to end her, suddenly all that hatred turned into love with her patience and her attention, even when we seperated for thousand times whenever i go back to her she take me, whever i was lost without her she finds me. The day i decided to let it all out and not allow Hollywood to dictate who i should be, not give the power to those paparazzi to break me I broke me. Was she wrong playing that bet with her friend, absolutely one thousand percent, i wish i could fight with her over it right now, but was i wrong to storm out like that? Have i been less childesh, have i been less impatient, less impolsive maybe i would've lisened to her, she would've told me it was long ago when i hated her the most, she would've told me that she bet her friend she'd turn my hatred towards her into love and she did. I would've fought with her, i would've made her beg for my forgiveness, i would've tortured her but i wouldn't have thrown that phone at her, i wouldn't have caused that accident, i wouldn't have been stuck inside of my head all this time, we wouldn't been having these solo dates where we are together but in different words, where she talks to me thinking i cant hear her and i shout for her knowing she doesn't know i am here.