DON'T LET ME GO

Chapter 21

As beautiful as that morning was it was time for us to face the reality. We had to go back to Cannes and from there back home.

My phone didn't stop lighting up every minute, now Carmen phone has joined the party and kept buzzing while she was taking a shower.
I didnt mean to look, i didnt mean to read her message but as i picked the phone to bring it to her, in a blink of an eye i read my name. I wish i never did. I stood at the bathroom door, my back to the cold wood and read what was writen next to my name.

"Congratulations you won the bet, little jenny is your puppy!
I owe you 100 bucks"

I think i read that message more than twenty times till Carmen unaware of my dicovery placed a kiss on the back of my neck as she left the shower.
Like a theif who unexpectedly got caught i jumped and her phone fell on the ground. I didnt need to say anything, Carmen bend down to pick it up and saw the same words i was reading.

-Jenny...

I didnt find a voice to speak, why can't i have one day of peace with this woman? Look how far i came for her and it was all just a dare....

-Jenny, i can explain.

She try to hold me and i try hopelessly to avoid her touch i just want to grab my stuff and get out of this place that all it does is reminding me of how silly i am, how childesh i was about all of this. How did i go from wanting to distroy her to becoming "her puppy", a 100 dollars worth bet? How did you do it Carmen?
Everyting went by so fast.

Somehow i was already downstairs trying to get the recipionist to understand that i need a ride to Cannes.Who work in a hotel if they dont speak english? Then again, this was closer to a frat house than a proper hotel.
The lift doorbell rang and i subconsiouly turned as it was opening, i saw her coming towards me so I gave up on my tries to communicate with the french lady and ran outside hoping to catch a taxi before Carmen catches up with me.

This must be a very insignificant village on the map, i'm standing here for 20 minutes and not even one car drove by to save me from her.
She keep talking i am not even hearing what she's saying.

Then i got tired of standing, of the heat, of her voice, of waiting, of being hurt... Eventually i gave up and got into the car with her.

Carmen still talking and i'm spacing out, i'm going over all the tabloids stories, looking at all the pictures, reading all the angry threatening messages from Edward, the worried ones from Elisabeth, everything is blurry.

Everything is crumbling down and she's still talking and explaining and apologizing and as soon as she said the word i did it....