DON'T LET ME GO

Chapter 20

After that soft embrace we shared infront of the world everything about Cannes went by like a dream. It was a busy dreamy week with very little sleep and way too much wine and cheese and Carmen.

After that closing ceremony i asked Carmen to meet, midnight in the streets of Cannes, it was easy to forget all the security details around me since she was there, she's driving and i'm looking outside the window counting how long it takes for both our bodygard cars to catch up with us she was driving as if runing away from the world, from time.

-Jenny!

I look back towards her maintaining my leaning on the window position.

-Carmen!
-do you think maybe we can talk ab....
-do you think maybe we can just be here and now and never go back there and then?
-i was gonna ask about that smooch, it was kinda here and now
-what about it?
-well...

I knew where she was going with it and if i allow this conversation we will end up there and then so i adjusted myself in the seat in a more leaning toward her than the window position and i started playing with the now short hair of hers and said:

-well it was nice but very brief for my taste, care to repeat it?

She looked at me with that "you're my human" look that puppy gives you after the first time you left them alone and with a smile she replyed:

-there is our car, there is your security car right behind us, mine right after and probably five or six paparazi motorcycle all over the road.

-OUR CAR! i love the sound of that.
-Jenny i'm serious.

She said with a worried tone

-wanna give the people what they want?
I asked her with a deviloush smirk on my face.

She took a second to process what i just said and then droped the E word with a questioning underline to it.

-Edward?

i just rolled my eyes and laughed, she laughed with me and suddenly OUR CAR top started to slowely open and reveal us to those picture hangry paparazzi around us.
I stood up and started screaming my lungs out all she could do was drive and look at this new crazy girl that few months ago couldn't even stand up to her manager and now she's standing on a moving convertable on a road in south of France waving at the paparazzi that once were her nightmare, we came into a red light signal and as Carmen pushed the brake i slamed back into my seat and grabed her face to kiss her.
That was the first moment that was not stolen from us by showbiz instead we gave it to them.
The signal switched to green and we're not moving, we're still drinking eachother up and i could hear the paparazzi cameras going crazy clicking away our bodyguards left their cars and started chasing them away and as everyone was busy with the jelmen kiss carmen took off as fast as she could leaving all of them stranded and in shock behind us.

Somehow we ended up in a tiny village at the outscurts of Cannes we roamed the narrow streets looking for any open bar when i saw a blinking hotel neon sign and i screamed:

-there, there, let's go there.

As an obedient citizen Carmen pulled up infront of this little hotel shyly hiden in the heart of this magical village.
We checked in, ordered champagne and spent the early hours of the morning getting drunk on eachother.
Carmen was snuggling into my arms when my phone started buzzing i'm trying to reach it without waking her up and as i do she pulls me closer to her and whispers:

- if you pick up the dream will be over.

Her sad voice kind of gave me a hint on what she meant and what she was thinking, so i gave up on tering to grab my phone and i grabed her face instead.
I kissed her gently and then whispered in her ear:

-this is not a dream my love, i wont make you fight for a maybe, i'm here to stay.

she moved a round a bit till her lips reached my ear and in a soft and slow way she said the words:

- i love you.

I huged her tight and said them back looking into her eyes:

-i love you more. This is us now, nothing is gonna keep me from you.

Little did i know you need more than love to survive in shiwbiz.