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"She's the One Who Cares for You"

Ethan's POV (A/N: oof)

I didn't want to do that to Tate, but I had to because I know that she'd leave me, just like everyone else did. All the friends that I had, and the one girl that I truly fell for and was in love with left, all because I showed my true feelings. She broke my heart and left me. I've stayed away from everyone to hide myself from others. I can't and will never trust anyone. Not after what she did to me. What everyone did to me.

flashback:

"Ethan where are you taking me?" She giggled as she looked at me. Her beautiful brown hair and green eyes staring at me with curiosity.

"You'll find out soon my goober." I laughed looking back at her and then back to the road. She laughed while giving me a weird look.

"Why do you keep calling me that?" She asked, her sparkling eyes still looking at me.

"Because it's funny and the other ones are just cringey." I told her truthfully. I drove up to a quiet place, there was a cliff where you could see the stars shining and the waves crashing against the rocks.

"Wow, this is amazing!" She said in astonishment, looking up at the sky. She's so beautiful and I can't believe she's mine.

"You're so gorgeous." She looked at me, immediately blushing.

"Stop no I'm not." She denied. I shook my head at her, while grabbing her hands.

"Yes you are and you know it. These past two years have been amazing and I can't believe that I am able to spend it with you. Hensley, you make me feel happier. After all the stuff I've been through you've been there for me. I love you, I'm in love with you." I said, while having the biggest smile on my face. Her smile slowly fell once I said the words, and so did mine.

"E-Ethan I can't do this." She admitted, looking down and removing her hands away from mine.

"What- what do you mean?" I asked, confusion written all over my face.

"I don't feel the same way at all. I thought I would sooner, but I don't. I should've told you before things became like this." She confessed.

"But- but I've told you everything! We've been through everything!" I exclaimed still not comprehending what was happening.

The girl I fell for, my dream girl, is not in love with me. All sadness and anger overcame my body.

"Ethan, I'm so sorry." She said trying to come near me. I stepped away from her and got in the car. Her following after me. I drove back to her house and dropped her off.

"I really am sorry, but you need to get over it." Hensley said. I laughed dryly and faced her.

"Get over it? Get over it?!" I repeated her words.

"You know what? I hope the next guy that comes in your life, breaks your heart more than how you broke mine, then you'll fucking know what it feels like, and you won't be saying "get over it." She sighed and walked out the car.

Once she was out of site, I broke down. Tear after tear, after tear came down my face. I slammed my hands in the steering wheel, angry at myself for falling for her. Angry at myself for telling her how I feel.

The next day she got into a relationship with some other guy. I told my friends about it and they thought it was pathetic of me to fall in love with a girl. So, I shut myself away from them, and slowly lost all of them one by one. I didn't want to be by people who wouldn't support me. The fact that they didn't care really hit me hard. I lost everyone and who I was. I lost my purpose in life. I know I shouldn't be so depressed over this girl, but after finding out my dad had cancer also left me questioning everything.

Everyone leaves once they get to know me. That's the way it works. So, why waste myself getting hurt all the damn time when I can just shut myself out and be away from everyone? I can't take another heartbreak. I can't take another loss friendship. I can't take another loss family member. I'm not proud of who I became, but it's better than always being hurt in the end.

flashback over.

I was in my room when Grayson barged in.

"Nice of you to knock." I sarcastically said. He rolled his eyes and scoffed at me.

"What the fuck is your problem?" He asked, yelling at me.

"Nothing." I replied blandly.

"Whatever you did to Tate, you need to fucking fix it now!" He demanded me.

"And why should I? She's gonna leave like the rest of them!" I said, while sitting up, showing the same amount of anger as Gray was showing.

"Because she's the one who's stood up for your ass, she's the one who actually stuck by you and finally changed you! She's the one who cares for you!"

"Yeah and how do you know she won't leave? What if it's all just an act? I can't do that to myself Gray! I really can't."

"How do you know she won't leave? Wouldn't you think she would've left already? She probably will now after how you're acting now! And it's because of you! Not her, it's you! So, the only one to blame is yourself!" That was the last thing Grayson said to me before he walked out.

I sighed heavily while lying back down on the bed. I ran my hands through my head, thinking, thinking, and thinking. I put in some headphones and listened to my playlist.

Truth is I'm scared of having feelings again.
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another edit?? idk why i've been in a writing mood aksjdjd ok bye.