Him: e.g.d

"I Hate You"

I don't understand. He shut himself out away from me. He starts to be nice to me and then opens up to me. I thought we would've became closer. He shuts himself out again and goes and beats up Tyler for me. He confuses me so much and I don't understand.

"Tate are you okay?"

"T, I'm so sorry you had to deal with that."

"Tate, what happened?"

"T? Are you there?"

"Tate?"

"Tatum?"

"Miss Tatum!" I jolted up looking at my surroundings and at the teacher.

"Please pay attention!" The teacher snapped.

"Um, yea sorry." I said, putting my head on the desk.

"Hey, you okay?" Laney asked.

"I'm fine!" I snapped and then quickly apologized.

"I'm sorry, yes I'm fine, please just stop asking me." She sat back in her seat finishing the notes we were taking.

"Do you want to tell us what happened?" Dani asked. I looked at them and shook my head no. All I wanted to do was to get the hell out of here.

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I decided to walk home since I wanted to clear my mind. I stopped right in the middle of my house and the twin's house. I was debating on whether or not going over there to check on Ethan. Well not really checking, but to talk to him. I know I shouldn't since I told myself that I wouldn't, but I was desperate for answers.

I opened the door and walked right in. If Ethan can do it in my house then I can do it in his. Good thing no one was home.

I walked upstairs trying to find which one would be Ethans. Only one door was open, so it must be his. I walked in not seeing him, but then I saw his window was open. I looked out and up and saw him; he was sitting there, his knees close to his chest as he looked at the horizon.

"Hey." I sat next to him, copying his position. It was silent for a second before he finally said something.

"I hate you." Was the first thing he said, as he looked down at his lap. I didn't say anything, just looked straight ahead.

"I hate you for making me feel like this." He finished.

"Making you feel like what?" I asked looking at him. He never made eye contact with me.

"Making me feel like I care again." He made eye contact with me as he said that.

"You made me feel great about myself again, you made me show emotion again, and I hate you for that, because I know I'm going to get hurt in the end." He confessed.

"Ethan, you can't say that if you don't know that." I told him.

"I know I shouldn't do this, but I feel like I should." Before I could ask what it was he was talking about, I felt a pair of lips on mine. The butterflies in my stomach were flying like crazy. Like they just all of a sudden snorted cocaine. He pulled away slowly and stared at me. My face felt all hot, I was probably blushing like crazy.

"Do you want pancakes? Cause I want pancakes." I laughed and nodded my head. He held a hand out for me to take and I did. We went back in the house to go through the front door.

We made it to a near by diner and sat down, waiting for our food.

"Ethan, what did that kiss mean?" I asked playing with my fingers. I didn't want to get close to him and then be shut out by him again. I need to know what this means.

"Well I feel different being around you, and I like being around you, but I always have to somehow fuck up everything. Tyler was right about everything." His frustration got the best of him as he ran a hand through his hair.

"Hey! Tyler is not right about anything, also thank you for beating him up." I smiled as I put my hand on his. He looked at our hands and smiled.

"I've been waiting to do that for a long time, I just never had it in me."

"That was shitty for what he said." I said.

"About?" He asked.

"About...your dad." I quietly said, as I looked down.

He heavily sighed,"Yea, but that's Tyler for you." I smiled sadly at him.

"Not to be all cringey or anything, to be honest with you, you make me happy Tums." There he goes again with that damn nickname. Ugh.

"I don't know why, but you make me happy too, e-tee-wee-tee." I laughed.

"I only have ever allowed you to call me by that name, and my mom and Grayson." He added.

I laughed and soon our pancakes came. I had chocolate chip pancakes, bacon, sausage, and a side of scrambled eggs. I ate it as if it was my first meal in years.

"Someone was hungry." He chuckled as our plates were being taken away. We left the place walking to wherever I guess.

"So, um does this mean we're dating?" I asked watching our feet as they walked on the concrete.

"Depends, do you want to be with a fucked up person as myself?" He asked me, smiling.

"Depends if you want to be with this fucked up person." I smiled back at him.

"Eh, I guess so." He laughed. I could tell he was just joking.

"Oof, you guess?" I laughed as I asked him. He started laughing again and put his arm around me, as we continued walking.
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