Defend Me

Chapter 12: The Change

Blake's Point of View
I seem to find myself doing the same thing every day: staring at the ceiling. My thoughts ran wild as I stared at the popcorn style. I should really get rid of that. It shouldn't be too hard, right? I should ask Asher about it. He is also my finance guy. I can probably do it in a few hours. I'm sure the guys will help.

"Blake!" I heard someone yell from inside my house. I groaned. Why won't anyone let me wallow in peace? I had been in my room for the last three hours. I woke up the day after the wedding, went to practice, got beat up by my team, got drunk and came back home. I haven't done anything since. I can't find it in me to do anything. What even is life? It's pointless to me now. I've lost the most important thing in my life and now i'll never get it back.

I told Krissy how I felt in front of everyone we knew and she ran away. Who runs away after someone confesses their love for them? To make things worse, Daniel freaking proposed to her and it was right after I told her.

That's just a dick move, even for him. Sophie hasn't told me what Krissy answered, but I can just feel it in my gut. She said say yes, but she can't. She still loves me. I know she does.

"Blake! Do you not hear me?" Asher yelled as he walked into my room full of anger. I ignored him and continued to wallow in my own self pity. I needed to drink. It's the only thing that will let me forget my horrible mistakes. I know I have a bottle of Jack. "Blake!"

"What?" I answered, clearly annoyed. I just wanted to be drunk and alone. It's all I learned to know.

"Sophie and I are leaving for Cancun in a few. Will you be alright while we're gone?" Asher asked. His anger was longe gone, only to be replaced with concern. I shrugged. It wouldn't be the first time i'd be alone. I'm 25 now. I can do whatever I want without him baby sitting me. "Blake? What happened yesterday when you ran after Krissy?"

"Nothing. I was too late." I told him. He sighed, sitting on the edge of my bed. He had asked me about it the moment I walked back into the reception. I ignored his questions and drank. I was thankful they had an open bar. I don't know the amount of liquor that was in me by the end of the night, but i'm sure my parents were disappointed in my actions. I was drunk at my sister's wedding. I'm sure our relatives didn't want to see that, but they were used to me being careless and wild.

"What do you mean you were too late? What happened?" Asher asked again. I guess Krissy hasn't told Sophie about the proposal. Or, Sophie hasn't told Asher. I'm still hoping Krissy said no and decided not to tell my sister. She had to say no.

"I ran out there, ready to ask Krissy for a second chance, prove to her that I was different, when I saw that Daniel was already with her. He seemed to be comforting her and that's when he popped the fucking question." I said in disgust. I felt queasy just remembering the scene unfold. I wanted nothing more than to bash that guy's face in.

"Wait, are you saying that Daniel asked Krissy to marry him right after your speech?" Asher asked. I nodded. "No way. I'm sure Sophie would have known by now if they were engaged. She hasn't said anything. Unless, Krissy said no."

"I'm hoping she did. She can't marry someone else. We're supposed to be together." I told him. Everyone knew. I felt my head pound. I needed to stop overthinking this. We're meant to be. Everything will fall into place. I just can't stand seeing her so happy with that perfect guy. That's supposed to be me.

"Unless she did say yes and that's why she hasn't told Sophie. She knows Sophie would immediately tell you." Asher said thinking aloud. I frowned. He was not making this situation any better. "Sorry, I'm sure she said no bro. She loves you. She just has to come to her senses."

"How much longer can that take?" I groaned. Asher shrugged. I had been waiting for years now. I just wanted to have her back in my life as my girl and not my sister's best friend or my lawyer.