Notice Me: I'm Sorry, I Love You

Chapter 1

Dianne Rodriguez, yan ang pangalan ko. No one seems to be interested in me, kaya ako mismo ang gagawa ng paraan para maging interesado sila saken. They all think i'm one of the boys cause the way i dress,the way i walk, the way my posture look like, the way i act and especially, because i only have one hairstyle. But that's not what i really want them to see, i want to show them the REAL me, simple, an average person, and a teen girl who wants nothing but someone who can appreciate her, love her, respect her, and accept her not because she's nice nor a good looking, but because she is what she is.

Winner ba? haha, yan ang mga bagay na gusto kong marealize ng mga tao, pero sa panahon ngayon, i think people expect someone who's better, and whom they think will be better for them. Ang nag-iisa lang namang tao, na di ako iniiwan kahit anong mangyari at tanggap ako, ay si besty. Rica ang pangalan niya, Rica Faye Santiago. We grew up together, at sa lahat ng kilos namin, we knew its every meaning.

*RING..RING!!!*

"Hello?"

"Dianne! excited na ko, next week na yung pasukan natin OMG! makakasama narin kita sa school!" Rica said loudly.

"Sorry pero i'm not feeling the same way Besty"

"Why?! "

"Kase transferee ako at di ko kilala mga tao dun?"

" Basta! see you sa school ha!, at stop mo na yang kakapost mo sa blog mo, basta pag FIRST time talaga, di mo mabitawan.Hmp! geh kain ka na, tama na kakablog"

"okiee po boss!"

Ok guys!, yan muna sa ngayon, Have A Nice Day! haha Mcdo lang ampeg! Bye for now ^_^ (Blog)

Pagwala na ko sa computer, my life's back to being boring. Doing my everyday routine, nothing change about me. Only through socials i can express my feelings besides my bestfriend. Malapit na yung pasukan, and i hope, this year is not another year where there is new fake friends and new classmates who can judge my identity...

"Bakit ngayon ka lang umuwi?! 7:30 in the morning?! is that the perfect time na uuwi ka?!"

"And is this the perfect time for us to be arguing again?! pagod ako, i need some rest hindi yang dada ng bunganga mo!"

I passed behind them going to the kitchen, not even minding my parents scolding each other again. Eating my breakfast, hanggang sa matapos akong kumain. Di parin sila tumigil, until i can't handle their big scary voices echoing inside our house anymore.

I positioned myself in front of them while holding a fragile glass, lifting it slowly till it labeled my head and slowly letting the glass slipped off my hand.

They both turned in silence, a silence which only the sound of them catching their breathe can be heard.

"Anak naman, you should've called yaya if you want a glass of water, or you should have just told me so" said mom walking towards me and slightly sweeping my shoulders.

"Dianne, ok ka lang?!" dad ask

"Stop it both of you!, punong-puno na ko!, Ni hindi niyo man lang napansin na bumaba ako at kumaen ng breakfast! Ni hindi ko man lang narinig ang mga salitang "Good Morning", i had enough!, you guys never stop fighting!, arguing! and scolding each other!, i hate you both!" i strongly said while running in tears, going in my room and slamming the door.

"Anak!"

Facing my back at the back of my door crying, bakit wala akong magawa?, lagi nalang, di ko sila mapigilan, ang hina-hina ko..

"Yaya!, pakilinis naman to pls"
"Opo ma'am"

"Erik! di pa tayo tapos!"-Mom
"at wag mong hintaying tapusin ko!"-Dad

Hearing my mom in tears is like hitting me with a thousand knives. Ang saket, pero alam kong nasasaktan rin si Dad,alam ko kung anu ang tawag sabihin ng mga salitang binitawan niya, i have to go to Rica, i can't take hearing another word from them...

(Calling Rica)

"Hello best"
"Dianne? ba't ka umiiyak?"
"I just want you by my side, pwede ba kong pumunta sa inyo?"
"Sure!, kita tayo sa 7-11, i'll pick you there, tahan na"
"Salamat bess"

I ran back down dala ang bag ko, nakita ko si mama, nakaupo sa sofa and still in tears.

"anak, san ka pupunta?"

"Kelangan niyo pa po bang malaman?, just argue with dad mom, kung yun ung hobby nyo"

wala na kong ibang inisip habang nasa taxi ako, kundi ang problema sa bahay. Wow, how perfect, ang aga-aga pero they start another damn fight, minsan, gusto ko nalang lumayas instead of coming home and waking up na nadaratnan silang nag-aaway.

Looking through the glass, nakatulala, i can still hear my parents voices, Till i just saw my bestfriend na kumakaway sa malaking window glass ng 7-11. Bumaba ako sa taxi at tumakbo ako papunta sakanya, i can't stop my tears from falling down my cheeks.

"Best, tahan na, wag dito, maraming tao." whispered Rica

While going to another taxi, my bestfriend is still comforting me, i see the look on her face, hoping for me to be calm. Nakarating kami sa bahay niya, it's so silent, perfect place para makapag-isip ako...

Kinwento ko kay Rica lahat ng pangyayari sa bahay, wala na kase akong iba pang pwedeng pagsabihan kundi siya. Pagmayproblema ako, sakanya ko sinasabi lahat, lagi nya kasing napapagaan ang loob ko. Sobrang swerte ko nga, dahil siya ang bestfriend ko. Kaibigan na kahit kelan, palaging nandiyan.

"Shopping tayo para mawala yang lungkot mo"

Mahilig si Rica sa shopping, isa siyang fasionista pero di ko hilig kaya parati ko nalang siyang sinasabahan, tutal, libre naman ang pangkaen.

"Sige"

Rica always know how to make me feel better, we have similarities in someways, that's how when we first saw each other, we knew, we are meant to be together forever, bestfriends.

"Best!, thanks talaga sa lahat!, you made me feel better"
"Wala yun! para san pa ko kung tutunganga lang ako di ba?, so see you then sa school?, bye"
"For now, hahaha"
"Yup! talk to you sa phone nalang"
"Okie, goodnight"

Marami nanaman kaming nagawang memories ni besty, pero i wonder kung ano na nanaman ang ginagawa ng parents ko sa bahay.

"Dianne, andito ka na pala"
"sorry manang, gumala lang po kami ni Rica, girls day out lang po"
"Sige, pasok na"

Heading to the kitchen to get some water, when someone opened the light.

"Ba't ngayun ka lang umuwi?"
"Ahh dad, i'm just out to see Rica"
"Hanggang ganitong oras ng gabi?"
"Eh dad 7 o' clock palang naman po"
"And so? you're a teen, how can u protect yourself mula sa mga taong posibleng saktan ka?"
"malaki na po ako at tsaka si Rica lang naman po ung kasama ko"
"Kahit na!, pareho kayong babae!"
"Pwede po ba dad?, pagod na po ko, gusto ko ng magpahinga"
"i'm not done talking!, Rica!"

Patuloy parin ang pagtawag sakin ni dad, but i just straightly go in my room and lock the door, hearing him knocking but i just keep on ignoring him.

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Author's Note:

Sana po nagustuhan niyo po tong part na to. Thanks po sa pagbabasa!

Pls vote for Rica kung may bestfriend kayong palaging nandiyan para sa inyo! <3

Pls comment rin po.

(Please keep reading.Salamat Po!)