SHINee Imagines [EDITING]

Letter #1 to Jonghyun

[Note: For those who don't know, this book previously used to be a strictly Jonghyun Imagines book till about a week ago when I decided to change it into a whole SHINee imagines book. When this used to be a Jonghyun Imagines book I published this *emotional* author's note on the second day of their concert (Feb 19th) which contained a letter to Jonghyun. The letter was just a way of me to cope with reality and release my feelings.

I want to go ahead and republish this note once again and since it was nothing but my true feelings I won't be editing the first letter, however I will add an additional portion to the letter cause well we're in the present and I want to let out some more.

WARNING: this author's note is going to be emotional regarding Jonghyun and SHINee's concerts so if some of you guys aren't ready to face reality just yet, which I completely understand, you guys can skip directly to the next update

But, if you guys want to stay and read this, you guys are more than welcome to!

I didn't want to include any sad parts in this book but I couldn't help myself. I needed to let my emotions out instead of bottling them in and I knew this would be a perfect place to do so cause I know I'm not the only shawol who needs comforting right now, we all do. So I wanted to take the initiative to speak out for others and maybe help them feel a little at ease

Remember, you all aren't alone. If you want to cry, go ahead. If you want to sit in the darkness, go ahead. If you want to be alone, go ahead. DO WHATEVER HELPS YOU! Don't worry about other judging you!! Take as much time as you need and remember I'll be here to talk....

The following A/N is a letter to Jonghyun, a letter of my feelings towards him and our boys SHINee....

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[February 18, 2018]

Dear Jonghyun,

Today it has been 2 months since you've passed away and today was also SHINee's Japan concert's second show; their first ever concert without you. It was such an overwhelming day for me and many shawols. Reality hit me really hard during these past two days when I saw SHINee perform as 4 instead of 5. My heart feels heavy, Jonghyun. I had a breakdown today cause I missed you, I missed you a lot today. We ALL missed you a lot!

Taemin and Minho stayed strong but there were tears lacing their eyes. Onew and Key broke down at one point and it broke my heart to see them like this. It broke my heart to know that SHINee's reality is now 4 members, but don't worry Jonghyun, you'll always be here as well. SHINee was, is, and always will be 5! You're SHINee's angel! It'll be hard to get used to seeing SHINee physically as 4, very hard; but I know we'll heal. It'll get better one day, that I strongly pray and hope for!

SHINee is such a strong band! The love and respect I had for them just sky rocketed after today. They looked exhausted, they looked incomplete, they looked broken, but they did it, Jjong. They did it! They sounded and looked so beautiful! Just magnificent! They finished the concert with each other's support, with your love, and with us shawols' promise to always be by their side and keep you alive in our hearts forever. Minho asked us to promise to never forget you and believe me none of us will ever forget you, we won't be able to. We'll always keep you and your legacy alive.

I'm really proud of my boys, of your brothers! They really love you Jonghyun, we all love you, we always will!

What's done is done and I know you won't come back, so I don't even pray for your return anymore. Rather I pray and hope that you're finally happy now. I pray and hope that you're at peace. I pray and hope that one day I get a chance to meet you in heaven and thank you and tell you exactly how much you mean to me and how much I appreciate you. Thank you Jonghyun for what you've done, for the legacy you've left behind, for... everything!!

We love you! 💙

You did well, Jonghyun. Very well!! 🌹

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[February 27th 2018]

Dear Jonghyun,

Today the boys finished their concert. You know they did so well! Us shawols are so proud of our boys!

They're still broken and incomplete, us shawols are still hurt too; but we're all standing strong together.

I thought the last two days would go by smoother but it was still as difficult as the first show. My heart is still heavy and your void can still be felt Jonghyun, but you're still alive in so many hearts. You're always going to be alive in our hearts.

The members miss you so much! Did you hear Minho cry out your name during the performance of "Diamond Sky"? Did you hear Taemin hit your iconic notes?? Did you see and hear the members smiling and laughing? Minho asked once again to never forget you and we promise we won't. We'll never. We just won't be able to....

Things seem to be getting better but it'll take time Jjong. We all dearly miss you. No amount of words can be put together to express how much we miss you and LOVE you. But we know that you already know. You know right? Of course you do!

I heard SHINee will be releasing their Japanese album on April 18th, 2018 which will contain the song "From Now On" as well. That song has grown to mean so much to me. I can't wait for the album! I promise to support to the boys with all my heart and strength! We all will support them no matter what. 5HINee will always be 5 and that's an inevitable fact

Also, last night the moon was shining so bright and do you know how many stars I saw in the sky?? It was just so... bright and peaceful. I saw the sky calm beauty after so long, I saw it shine bright after so long. My sister and I stood underneath the sky and kept on pointing to our favorite star which shone the brightest and kept on saying "that's Jonghyun" "no that's Jonghyun" XD XD XD. Last night felt so perfect!

I hope you're at peace Jonghyun. I've said this before and I'll say it again: I pray and hope to meet you one day in heaven. I wish to thank you and tell you how much you mean to me. I hope you're happy!!

We love you! 💙

You did well, Jonghyun. Very well!! 🌹

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If any of you guys want, feel free to leave your own letter in the comment section down below if it helps to relieve your feelings and emotions

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Stay strong my fellow shawols. We can make it through together. We have to stay strong for our boys! We got this! I love you all! FIGHTING! 💕💙