The memories kept coming back. It kept on repeating. The memory of Sehun and I holding hands for the first time. And the one I hated the most.
After all these years trying to block all these memories, I had a hard time controlling my emotions. The wall that I made sure remained guarded kept on falling off.
They say the person you love the most is the most important one and that we should trust them with all our heart but what if that person betrayed in you in such a way that you find it difficult to try and trust others.
That day he was not the only one who broke my heart. I felt so worthless that I nearly lost my life. If Yugyeom had not been there with me, god knows where I might be right now.
I didn't know how it happened but I was now on the floor, my eyes sweating for them who left me when I needed them the most.
It was until someone held me in their arms, I knew I was crying in school and most importantly in front of Sehun who accused me of things I had never done.
Jennie, stop crying. You don't want them to feel that you are weak, do you?
It was like a I was chanting a mantra, repeatedly trying to tell myself not to cry but it had no effect.
The crying made me feel so suffocated and I had a hard time breathing.
"Jenduekie, keep breathing." The person held me in their arm rubbing my back and saying sweet words.
That's when I knew I was having a panic attack. And the only person who knew how to handle me when I was having a panic attack was Yugyeom.
"Gyeommie, their words just won't go away. Please tell them to go away." I managed to say.
"What's happening to her Yugyeom!" I heard someone ask or more like screaming. Either he didn't hear it or chose to ignore it 'cause he didn't reply back.
"Jennie, ju- just keep breathing. Don't think of anything but your breathing. Block out everything and focus on your breathing." His voice slightly cracking at the end.
Yes Jennie keep breathing. Okay in 1 2 3. In out. In out. In out.
I told myself. A few moments later my breathing was back to normal. Wiping the lone tear that was sliding down my left cheek, I held the nearest hand that I saw and said, "Take me home."
Home, home, the place I dreaded the most.
Without any word that person led me outside the room and into the car.
That person didn't let go off my hands even when they drove the car. I was not in the right state of mind to even care who was bringing me home.
The front door was opened by the maids and I could hear their hysteric cries asking why I was in such condition.
"What happened to young lady!?"
The person replied back saying that I had a panic attack and to call the family doctor.
Just then the front door slammed open.
"I called the doctor, he will be here in twenty minutes." When I turned to see who it was, I just wanted to be in my brothers arm so I dropped the hand I was holding and went to Suho.
I hugged him with all my might hoping the pain even if it was slightly to vanish.
He sighed and took me to my room carrying me bridal style.
Tugging me in bed Suho held my hands and sighed loudly.
"I am your big brother Jendukie and I want to know everything that happened between you and Sehun."
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The First Snow ✔️
Fanfiction"Betrayal" was what came into her mind when he said those things. She thought words couldn't effect her and wasn't a very strong tool but that night, she knew words are more powerful. She felt hurt knowing he would do such things. Since then she cha...
