Sehun's POV
A car racer. Right, that's what I had dreamt to be when I was small. As a kid, I was always fascinated by the roaring of engines and the adrenal from the from the racing car. The smell of gasoline, the grip of the stirring wheel, the brakes every thing.
But you know how your dream as a child changes overtime or your interest in it looses.
I was not sad that I had to give up becoming a racer because I soon fell in love with one thing which turned into my dream. Well, two to be exact.
One was taking over my father's electronic company which he worked hard to make a name in the competitive market. I heard that my father put his heart and soul into creating a company which is now a leading company in Korea.
I was angry at the fact that my mother had grown distant when my father started working more in his office rather than spending time with us. I was even more angry, broken to be exact when they sent me at the age of ten to New Zealand.
I hated them a lot and for next three years, I grew distant and more closed up I guess. I would scowl at anyone who messed with me, in fact I remember beating a boy because he stumbled upon me. It was all to gain the attention of my parents which of course went into vain.
The other dream was, well it is best dream I have ever had and I don't think I will stopping my self from pursing it. She was, still is the wildest fantasy which keeps me on my toes wondering what she would do next. Anticipating her next move, her next word.
Jennie Kim. The love of my life.
I hadn't remembered her name until I ran into her in the hallway and she looked so cute with a small frown on her face. I wanted nothing more than to wipe the frown off her face and make her smile but I suppressed the urge to do it.
Embarrassingly, Max had seen me stalking her and eventually dared me to take Jennie as my date to his birthday party. With her I felt as if the world was unicorns and rainbows. All day I would think about her and then somehow I had stopped creating problems.
I found myself feeling like a jerk for mistreating my parents when she said how her mother is kind of lacking in motherly department. That time I wanted to just yell at her mother for not being able to see how Jennie is feelings.
But then things happened and then I found my self telling her how she deserved the treatment her mother gave. Trust me I still regret it till date.
Out of million of things I promised to her, the first and the fore most thing was that I wouldn't let her be hurt and that I would protect her at all cost but I guess I couldn't even do that.
From the start till the end I kept on hurting her. I did not believe her the first time and this is still the greatest mistake of all. I was not qualified for her forgiveness yet she forgave me and loved me the same and I couldn't be even more happier.
Having her lost her once, I couldn't bear to loose her the second time. I may have the greatest of all jerks at the time but not now. Not when I know she is suffering all by herself.
I looked at the Rolex watch on my left wrist to see it was fifteen minutes past 1 am which meant I was traveling for almost six hours.
If only I had the supernatural power to teleport myself, I would be with her in an instant.
The moment I landed at CBR, I immediately dashed out of the seat and made my way out of the airport going through immigration check and everything.
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I hesitated of course, hovering over the handle of the suit. I imagined lots of things happening, whether she lost or gained weight. Whether the tubes are connected to it or. Either way, I certainly did not have the best imagination.
The nervousness still creeping inside me, sweating, nauseous and moreover I was scared. Sacred that what ever was behind the door would crumble our life in an instant.
Slowly gathering all my courage I opened the door as I felt my tears well up.
There stood my princess in the hospital gown with her eyes fixed outside the window before turning her head towards me.
Her eyes widened when she saw me, mouth closing and opening. I knew then she was not expecting me to come.
"Hey, babe." I said quietly trying not to let my voice crack but then seeing her tear up made me loose my control.
It took my five large steps to reach her and hug the hell out of her. I held like she a rare gem which was. I could feel her warm cheeks come in contact with my cold one, Canberra's cold catching up with me. But soon I felt wet indicating she was crying.
I never knew she was paining and handling the pain alone. All by herself. I didn't know if I could even see her anymore or not. Lots of things were swirling but only thing which mattered was her love and that she was next to me.
After breaking down and trying to console her for the next few hours did she sober up.
"Sehu-Sehun, what are you doing here?" Her voice croaked.
"I am here for my girlfriend," I told her smiling softly feeling the tears well up again. I had to control it. I had to be strong.
Had it not been Max again, I might have lost her without knowing again. After the kiss we shared the last we were together, everything was fine until one day Suho showed up my front door saying Jennie was not home and that she left saying she was sorry especially to me.
I thought I had lost her again and that she left me. Thought she betrayed me and drowned myself in alcohol skipping my classes when Max called and told me everything.
Her surgery was posted and that she would be having her surgery in June.
What was big blow to me was how she was sick. If only I had been more persistent in knowing why she took medicine and why she looked like she would die in the first day.
It had taken me a month to let my ego and pride down and book the first flight to Canberra and be with my Jennie.
"Well then Mr. Boyfriend, mind singing me a lullaby? I am kind of sleepy right now," she asked with a smirk on her own before yawning and snuggling close to me.
"Of course, babe," kissing the top of her head I began singing.
"This girl is like a dream
My wildest fantasy
And right when I think I'm gon' wake up
She's pullin' me right back in...
... Sweet talk to me babe
It's magical
Sweet lullaby
Oh it's so hypnotizin'
Sweet talk to me babe
It's magical...."
She might not have told us about her condition but I knew she longed for all of us. She wanted all of us to be with her. I know that because she still had the picture that we all took on the day before she disappeared.
She thought keeping it a secret would protect all of us but what she don't know is how we all are hurting and scared.
The feeling of scare will never go away not anytime soon.
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