Laughing along with him made me realize one thing, that I clearly missed my old self. I was being bitter holding back to the past.
Remembering the cold night, his cold words, the call, the blood, the hospital bed was probably not the best idea.
I wanted to forgive him but the words he said to me that day took away all the chances he had.
"What?" His voice snapped me out of the trance. Only did I realize that I was staring at his face for a long time.
"Am I that handsome?" Chuckling at my confused state, he shook his head and smiled at me.
Ignoring his words, I continued treating his wounds. He had refused after sometime saying that I had to rest.
But I did not give up which of course I regretted the most for I had said, " We have to treat this bruises now otherwise you are not gonna look handsome during your birthday party next week."
Dropping the cotton and the antiseptic, I closed the kit hastily and shoved it towards him not saying a word. Slipping through the covers I slapped my mouth for having told a very stupid thing.
"Did- Did you just call me handsome?"
"No! Get out and close the door behind you." I managed to say without shuttering.
"You still find me handsome? You might just say you love me baby." He bluntly said.
Shaking my head at disbelief I chucked the pillow at him only to hit at the door behind him.
"You have lost your chance you know that right, Oh Sehun."
He flinched at the coldness of my voice yet smiling at me sadly he said, "I know that, that's why I am trying my best for you to forgive me."
"Just get out and close the door when you get out."
Everything was fine till now, why did he gave to bring out me loving him.
Snuggling deep inside the bed, I let myself fall asleep.
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"Baby, wake up." someone was shaking my shoulder.
Yawning I opened my eyes only to face with Sehun's smiling face.
He was so close to my face that I couldn't stop the butterflies in my stomach. Even after all this years, he still effects me the same.
"What?" I mumbled not meeting his eyes.
"Lunch is ready."
He grabbed my chin and made me look up to me.
"Can you see it?"
"What?" I questioned him.
"My love for you, I know I did the stupidest thing before. But you know that I am stupid right? Of course I am stupid, I trusted that girl when she told me that you were just after my money. I know it might sound pathetic, but I am very sorry for ditching you that night.
"After she told me some bad thing's about you, I couldn't help myself but believe because she was my best friend and not once has she lied to me," closing his eyes shut he took a deep breathe and continued, "I regret saying those words to you. Seriously I do. A-After I had said those cruel words to you, I came back but I found you in the arms of a man. Jealousy got the best of me and I assumed you were cheating on me and all the things she said were true."
It were just mere words to him, it was him apologizing for those words and action but I couldn't help but wince at cold truth that he had left me hanging that day. He broke my trust that day, that day I felt like all the soul was drained out from my body.
I thought even if it was just for a day, I would be the Jennie Kim I was before. Even if it was just for a day, I thought I could act as if nothing happened, as if my heart was not in pain and that I was not going to die. Now it went all in vain.
Holding his shoulder I pushed him away from me and stared right at his eyes, "Are you done? Good, now its my turn. You love me? Its pretty insulting coming from you since you clearly ditched me that day. I don't care if you came after me that night or how sorry you are. What pisses me off the most is the fact that you didn't confront me. You believed her all by your self when you could have confronted me. That day I almost killed myself. Your words made me feel worthless. You killed the smallest hope I had for Love,"
His eyes looked pain and hurt. He could now feel the pain I felt two years ago.
"I don't want to hear your side of story anymore. You can get the hell out of here. And one more thing, all I see in your eyes for me is one word -bitch."
Tears welt up but I refused to cry. He opened his mouth to say something but my bedroom door was wide opened and in my brother Suho and my Dad. Immediately Sehun stood up and cleared his throat.
"Oh my dear, are you fine? I am so sorry I left you." My dad and my brothers were the only person I feared of loosing. Without them, I might probably die. They give me strength to live everyday. That's why when I saw his face full of worry and pain, I couldn't help but break down.
His painful voice made me hurt more. The complete change which I had gone through, probably made him feel hurt and sad.
My father apologized for not being there when I had the panic attack and told me that my mother too was worried but is resting now. What kind of mother rests first when her only daughter suffered, I thought.
"Its okay dad. Don't apologize when you did nothing wrong. Just you being here with me now is enough for me. I am fine Dad," being held in my dad's arm made my chest feel so warm. A sudden wave of happiness came crashing on.
"I will let you rest for sometime princess. Tomorrow we will have the father-daughter time which we missed for almost two years. I love you princess." He ushered both Sehun and Suho out of the room but he didn't move an inch.
After both my father and Sehun went out of the room, he stared at me urging me to speak.
"Uhm... Where did Yugyeom go?" At that moment changing the topic was the best idea. I knew I had to tell him but I panicked because I knew it would effect their friendship and I didn't want to be the reason.
"I forced him to sleep. He didn't get any sleep yesterday, he was guarding you all night. He said something along the line -my baby sister is sick so I have to be with her. I promised to be by her side always-," suddenly pouting he continued, "I swear he is more protective of you than me. I thought he was a leech at some point. He stuck with you throughout the night. He didn't even let me stay with you. I am older than him. He should respect me. And this is not jealousy."
His last line made me burst in laughter. He was clearly jealous of Yugyeom.
Wiping the lone tear away, I pointed my index finger at him and shouted, "Suho oppa is jealous of Gyeommie."
He soon cracked up, of course retorting back saying he was not jealous of "that leech" But suddenly he stopped his laughter and turned serious.
"Now," and that meant I had to tell him now. Now meaning now, no later, no tomorrow, no next month, no nothing.
I knew I would regret it, but there was no escaping my brothers 'now'.
"Sehun and I met with each other two years ago in New Zealand..."
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Fanfiction"Betrayal" was what came into her mind when he said those things. She thought words couldn't effect her and wasn't a very strong tool but that night, she knew words are more powerful. She felt hurt knowing he would do such things. Since then she cha...
