The First Snow ✔️

Chapter 26 || Moving On

After my mother had held me last night, I was unsure of how to tell her things which I had hidden from her.

I did not tell her anything about Sehun rather I told her I was tired and wanted break after all the incident. If she knew there was more to it, she didn't show it but went along with my half spoken lie. It wasn't a lie actually. I was really mentally exhausted by all the things which came crashing down in my life.

Yesterday, before I could step into the dining room I received a call. A call that made me change the way I thought and had meant to tell all of them about my condition but then things happened.

My phone rang just as I was about to head for the dinning room. RM the callers ID flashed through it.

"What?"

"Hello to you too, Jen." He replied sarcastically. It took me by surprise actually since he never greeted and was straight to business.

"Why did you call Namjoon?" I asked since I still had my medicine and wasn't due to finish till June mid.

"Can't call you to say I miss you?"

"Just come straight to the point, NamJoon." I said making sure I was not in for any joke.

"Okay, okay. So you know how I work in Park Hospital being the best doctor and all?"

I sighed through the phone wanting him to know I was becoming impatient.

"-So the point is I found you a best surgeon who is gonna patch up your heart."

That made my heart stop immediately. A cardiac surgeon. A surgeon.

"Wha-what? Really?"

"Of course, Jennie. He is a heart specialist from Australia. He is the best and for years I was trying to get into contact with him and finally I did. He said he would be glad to to do if it mean saving a life. The surgery will take be on 3rd of June, okay?"

"3rd June? That's 10 days away." I said since today was 22nd May.

"Nam Joon, tell me frankly how much is my survival rate."

I could hear the hesitance in his voice when he said that I had only fifteen percent of hundred and it was enough to make me loose all my color. I am sure I look like a paper right now with all my color drained from my body.

"I- I will think about it." I gasped having hard time breathing. All the possibilities of my survival went down the drain and all I could of was fifteen percent.

I had a feeling of why it was only 15 percent. The panic attack had made my condition even worse that the dosage of medicine even increased. I had to run blood test and check my blood pressure to make sure I was fine.

Yesterday was enough for me to make a decision which was a do or die. I knew I should tell my parents and brother but I couldn't tell them.

So, I grabbed my phone from the bedside and dialed the number.

"Jen?"

"I will do it."

"Jen, you sure. Did you consult your parents or at least your brother?"

"Nope."

I heard the person sigh an irritated one and then said, "Well sorry to break it to you but I already told Yugyeom about it. Expect him to be there latest by tomorrow." With that they hung the call giving me time to recover from the shock.

Why the hell was Yugyeom informed about it?

All day long I paced around the room not bothering to worry about school. I might just stay home for the rest of the week. If Yugyeom came home tomorrow and told my parents I would be dead. Probably before I could enjoy the life I am enjoying.

Knowing him, he might just pull me out of the school and make me stay home. So before he had the privilege to do it, I might just do it myself.

I went inside the living room to find my mother talking on the phone so I sat on the couch while waiting for her to finish her talk.

"What happened, Jendukie? Do you want something to eat?" She asked me after setting the phone down and giving me the attention.

"Mom," I gulped before continuing, "Mom, I want to be home schooled. I don't want to go back to school."

Her eyes became as large as saucers before asking me the reason. I sneakily told her that I was tired of the students gaze and that I wanted out of the drama promising her from next year I would attend the classes. The latter being a lie since I won't. I may not.

Her eyes filled with tears and pity. She suddenly hugged me and repeatedly said sorry and that she would ask for home tutors.

The rest of the day we sent the maids on early leave and went grocery shopping on the way finding our self cupped up in ice cream shop and clicking tons of photo which reminded me of taking a family portrait.

Having reached around 5 at the house we found Suho pacing around the house phone clutched in the house.

And for about 30 mins we had to hear his lecture about how irresponsible we were. Even mother had to listen to him nag probably because she felt guilty of leaving the phone and not informing either father or him about our day out.

I watched my brother suddenly feeling rush of emotions. I wouldn't know if I could ever hear him scold or nag me again. The days are numbered for me.

I sat up straight from the couch making him stop him speech. I went up to him a hugged him tightly taking him by surprise.

"I am sorry oppa. I am sorry. I am sorry." I repeated again and again. I was sorry that I was not telling them. I was sorry that I was weak and I was sorry for I would be leaving them.

"Yah, Je-Jendukie, oppa was joking. Don't be sorry." He patted my back and hugged me.

"See Suho, you made your baby sister cry. When you were little, you said you wouldn't let a tear fall from her eyes and see now your the one making my girl cry." It was mother who was nagging him and it made me cry even more.

Both my mother and brother were confused as to why I was crying. If only they knew. If only they knew how sorry I was and now much I love all of them.

Soon father came and without wasting any second I pulled all of them into a group hug and cried my eyes out reminding how much I loved them and silently asking for forgiveness for keeping them in dark.

They were all confused heck even I would be confused if suddenly any of them cried and talked about love and sorry. But then soon they too recovered and told me they loved me too much that it would hurt if they lost me which made me feel even more guiltier.

I had only 8days with them and I would be gone. Only 8 days and then I-I will be just a memory to them.