Death. Death was something I was familiar with. I have had my grandmother die when I was eight years old. She had died of chronic heart disease. My aunt, Hami died when she tried to save the childish me.
I still remember that very clearly and till this date still haunts me. I have had sleepless nights because of my childishness. That day, aunt Hami and I had gone to the mall. I was ten at that time and I wanted to prove to her that I was not a child and could handle myself well.
The next thing that happened was that I was trying to cross the zebra cross when she was talking on the phone. I had missed the speeding car that was heading to my direction and all of a sudden I am pushed away, the car's impact never reaching mine.
Aunt Hami died that day instead of me. She was only twenty five at that time. She had all the time in the world but she never made it. The one decision that I made that day made the fall out of the relationship between mother and I.
Aunt Hami had barely survived when she was born and had somehow survived the weak immune system. And then suddenly I take her life away, that's why my mother hates me. And I feel the same way.
So when Sehun told me about Jade's cardiac arrest, I felt that I couldn't handle another pain.
I had immediately bolted out of the room and demanded Sehun to drive me to the hospital.
When I opened the hospital room, I was greeted with a crying Max and an empty bed. Having thought that Jade was gone I realized I was crying. At the thought of never having Jade nag me or how she would drag me ass out of the house made my heart feel heavy.
That bitch. She will be never be there to keep her promises. She promised me that if I ever marry, she would be my bridesmaid. She promised me that she will help me get rid of Hara if I ever killed her. She promised me that she will never leave my side ever again.
Bitch. Heartless bitch. You could have at least warned me if you were dying. I would have made you fulfill it by hook or crook. Why? I didn't even tell that it was okay. I didn't even get to tell you you were a asshole when you sided with here.
"Baby! Please breathe. Jennie Kim, I am telling you to breathe!" Someone screamed from my side.
I could hear them scream but I only thought about the promise Jade broke.
"She should have never promised me something she could never keep." I muttered as I felt a pinch on my neck.
Jade, you bitch. Why did you promise me when all you ever do is leave my side.
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I woke up feeling slightly dizzy. There was an IV drip connected to my hand and Sehun was stroking my other hand.
"Why the hell am I in here?" I asked him. He looked so fatigued, his eye bags were visible, his hair was disheveled and most of all his eyes held fear. The once filled with love is now filled with fear.
"Sehun.. What happened? Is Jade fine? Jade.. Oh my god, Jade," I then realized that fate was playing a very cruel joke on us. My throat pained from trying not to cry. Choking back a cry, I ripped the intravenous from my hand and sat up still.
"Hey! Babe, where are you going?" Sehun frantically shouted when he saw me walk towards the door.
Where was I going? I-I don't know where I wanted to go. I just didn't want to be in place where Jade died. It just felt heavy.
"Jennie, sit down and calm down." He said as he tugged my hand preventing me from going away.
"Oh Sehun, how can I sit down and calm down when... when Jade is dead. I just feel claustrophobic in here! You might not feel it but.. but Jade is -was -she promised me she will never leave me." I gasped for air as I thought of her.
Until end she is making me suffer, that girl.
"What? Jennie who told you Jade is dead. God bless her, she is not dead you idiot." He said.
"Huh? No.. Not dead. Sehun, you are not playing with me right?" I asked him feeling slightly dizzy. What did he meant by that? I saw Max crying on the empty bed where Jade lied and then he told me himself that Jade died. No, wait, he didn't tell me. I bolted right after he said Jade's name.
"Yes, idiot. You didn't even let me finish the sentence nor did you hear me during the car ride. And then you had your panic attack." He chuckled and pulled me into a hug, rubbing my back.
"Then, why was Max crying? I-I.." right, Max was crying.
"Babe, what am I going to do with you?"
"Don't do anything, just tell me."
"Right. So when Max called me he said Jade had a cardiac arrest and that she was taken into the operation theater to remove the blood that they somehow missed in the brain. As we speak of, Jade and Max are in the next room cuddling." To hear that she was alive and breathing made me release the breathe I had been holding.
"Then why did you looked so fearful as if some one died or is dying?" I asked him thinking of his appearance.
Suddenly his expression became lamented. I was worried if something happened back in Korea.
"I- you - gosh why didn't you tell me about your health." He shuttered.
"My health. What about it?" I lied.
"I was scared that you were constantly having a panic attack and J thought you had major PTSD but then I found out you had chronic heart failure." I paled as soon as he said those words. It was never meant for anyone to find out. I had planned to take the surgery without anyone knowing.
"I had my doubt's but I hadn't thought of such reasons." He continued. He then said how I was being selfish by not telling anyone. Out of all the people, he didn't have the right to tell me that I was selfish. I was finally done being the happy Jennie, everyone thinks I am.
"Don't tell my brother and father, please. I am going to have surgery after the mid term exam, I have already scheduled it with the doctor in New York. I will tell them after my surgery." I pleaded to him but he shook his head in disbelief.
"Jennie, they will want to be with you when you are going in the surgery," I have my own reason why I don't want them knowing.
"Rate. What is the survival rate?"
"67%, the doctor is one of the best." I lied about the survival rate.
"God! JENNIE KIM, STOP LYING TO ME, PLEASE!" He shouted on top of his lungs which made me wince.
"So? What are you going to do? I have accepted and I hope you do the same. I am doing them a favor by not telling them." I said coldly and sat down on the hospital bed.
"Stop being selfish for once," he said defeated. I didn't reply instead focused on the flower next to mine.
After staring at me for a long time, he went out of the room not before saying, "When you snap out of your childishness, come and find me." and slammed the door.
Death. Death was something I was familiar with. It will always be my nightmare. Always.
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Jennie is being difficult right? Well, she has her own reason.
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