I am trying my hardest
Please understand
Hardest does not mean best
It does not mean perfect
You are drowning me in expectations and self-doubt
And
Yet
Every other sentence is a 'I believe in you'
What do you mean
What do you mean
I am trying
But it is not enough
For you
Or for me
Maybe
If you listened
If you saw
The tears the fear the hurt the guilt
The unbearable loneliness
I do mean it when I say I have no friends
I have people who talk. I have people who smile.
And yet I cannot remember when I last confessed
what truly lies at the heart or the monster
For I am a villain
A beast
The weapon to be used and wielded
YOU ARE READING
✿Aphmau Shitposts and Other Depressing Things✿
Fanfictionhahaha I didn't lie about the title now did I Contains shitposts, me being an edgy depressed teen, and if you're lucky, a chapter that exceeds 200 words
