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"you ready?"
i hear Grayson yell from down stairs echoing the whole apartment
"Yea I will be there in a minute Gray" I yell back
Currently me and Grayson are getting ready to go to the mall since we needed outfits to go to a party Grayson is so hyped about since he always says that he wants to show me off.
But the truth is I don't want to be seen.
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I abruptly scan my reflection in the mirror not liking what I see.
Griping my stomach fat and looking at my fat thighs that like other prettier girls' bodies.
A single tear drop falling from my eye. I quickly wipe it away and dry it on my black jeans.
"I'm ready babe" I say as I walk down the stairs with my eyes on Grayson
"You look beautiful as always" he says kissing me cheek.
"Thank you Gray" I shyly try to smile grabbing my bag and opening the car door hoping into Grayson's bronco.
20 minutes later.....
We arrive to the mall as I sigh to myself slamming the car door shut pulling down my hoodie wanting to hide myself.
Grayson held my hand cutely smiling to himself looking happy as he can be.
We pass by Pac sun in which Grayson insisted I go in to find something.
Quickly rushing to a cute thin strapped floral top. But frowning as to knowing it wouldn't look as good on me.
standing next to me were 2 girls. Had on cute outfits, were slim and toned stare at m and grayson confused mostly looking at Grayson.
"Baby try it on it will look cute on you, please I will get you ice cream" grayson told me knowing how in love I was with ice cream.
"Uh....Ok" I say trying to be calm.
I get in the dressing room with bright lights detailing every inch of myself in the mirror.
Quickly sliding the shirt on looking at myself hating how it fit making me look bigger than I felt.
I sit down on the stool putting my head down feeling extremely insecure.
"Hey I was wondering if I can get your number" I hear one of the girls I just saw staring at me and gray outside the dressing room.
"No im sorry I Have a girlfriend" He says without hesitation
"She doesn't have to know" The girl says
"No im fine" He says back
"But don't you want a girl who can actually look decent?" The girl scoffs
"Don't say that about her ever again. Better watch it" he says in a stern voice, standing up at the girl.
"Y/N come out Babe", he says knocking on the door
I slowly open the door only showing my face
"Do you like it?" He says
"No"
"let me see it" he smiles
I take a deep breath in and open it
"Grayson I don't look good In anything at all, I mean you could be dating a thin fit girl instead of being with me"
"You should have said yes to that girl, after all she is way prettier" I say cracking my voice holding back tears.
Grayson looks shocked standing with a clenched jaw looking teary eyed
"Is that what you think of yourself Y/N?" he says in a low voice entering the dressing room not caring if the employees will catch him
"Your way more prettier than that girl Y/N"
"Oh common grayson don't play stupid with lies, I know you want a thinner girl, admit it" I say with a tear coming down my now red face.
"Y/N why are you saying this?"
"Because its true grayson" i yell
He grabs my waist and caresses my cheek while looking deep into my eyes.
"It doesn't matter if your big or small, I love you for you. Your pretty, beautiful, smart, perfect, funny, I love you and only you Y/N." He says wiping my tears away with his thumb
"I Love You" I say to him hugging him putting my heard in the crook of his neck.
"I love you more" he says kissing my forehead
We later left the store and went to get ice cream together having my wave of insecurities washed away by a wave of happiness having Ice cream and of course Grayson there with me.
Cringe ending :) If your insecure, just know your not alone and things will get better.
