{im better off with out him}
:recommend listening to :
"better off"
by ariana grande
while reading this lmaoo.
: ur pov :
i apply my last coat of mascara
as i finally set it down on the counter next to me.
i give myself one quick look before heading out the door.
the dread of the day.
school
hated it with a passion but seeing my friends made it worth it.
even if they were fake bi*ches at times.
-
i walk in seeing a full class of students.
in all that full crowd I spot him.
grayson.
grayson and I have been friends for a while.
1 year to be specific.
met a year ago.
last grade.
sat next to him almost every class.
became friends.
both started liking each other.
became a small thing but never dated.
but now we just text.
but the worst part of it all.
your still in love with him.
but you know he moved on.
no contact at school whatsoever
other than the occasional eye glances.
/ 3rd person pov /
"Hey girl"
you say and you as set your bag down.
"I thought you weren't coming. I was gonna cry"
jaz says.
"I'm here now"
your home room you didn't do much but talk since assignments weren't a big deal there.
jaz had already started talking a full conversation.
but your mind in blank.
your heart blind.
all you could think about was grayson.
he sat there next to all his friends.
talking and laughing away.
no worry in the world.
he never looks your way like he used to.
and that hurt you.
you felt stupid for getting too attached.
"hello, earth to y/n"
jaz waved in your face
"oh sorry, just blanking out"
you shook your head as you looked back at her.
you two talked away until the bell rang.
(ringgggg)
the whole class stood up as the scattered away to first period
your eyes drift to him.
again.
no glance. just leaves.
you sigh.
you wished for once he would talk to you like he did before.
| after 1st period|
i grab my phone out of my pocket instantly turning up the track.
"long way?"
you tell your friend ashley.
"for sure"
she says
she starts talking about her boy problems blabbering but you ofc still listening.
the laughs of boys could be heard over the halls.
one in particular.
you look up seeing grayson and his whole group of friends.
you immediate pick up your pace,
heart skipping a beat,
not wanting to even glance his face.
too much to bear.
he looks up seeing you, as he continued walking.
you always found it funny how y'all would talk to normally on text but never found any time for talking in real life.
you walk down the steps seeing him approach and talk to his girl friends.
the way he smiled.
made you feel some type of way.
even if he wasn't smiling at you.
the whole day went on seeing him,
looking perfectly fine and moved on.
while you sit in your depressed ass state.
you missed the old you.
you pick up your work and throw it all in ur bag as you wait for the bell to ring.
always the same routine.
go home.
eat dinner,
sit in your room while overflowing thoughts of what went wrong.
and balling ur eyes out.
not like you wanted to.
fall for a guy who moved on.
while you still haven't.
your friends go their whole own route as you pop on your track again.
"better off"
———ariana grande ——
plays on shuffle as you walk through the whole crowded halls.
seeing his friend group again you knew he was there.
again.
but this time with her.
he smiled brightly as he listened to her talk.
the tears in your eyes whelled.
flash backs came through.
when y'all laughed together.
went out to grab boba.
spent everyday together.
made so many memories.
magic mountain.
we're crackheads.
passed each other notes in class.
talked every night.
when he confessed.
first I love you.
when he gave you his hoodie.
when he looked into your eyes and just stared.
it hit you.
it was never coming back.
he.
the one he was before.
was never.
coming back.
you were better off without him.
better off not being around him.
-
you unlock the front door as you rush to your room plopping on the bed.
tears streamed down the pillow as your whole body felt numb.
in pain yet numb.
you wanted everything and every feeling to go away.
you wanted to get grayson off your mind and be okay.
you wanted to stop texting him one day and then not text for 4 days.
wondering what this is.
you knew you were better off without him.
better off being a wild one.
so that im better off not being around ya.
(Ding)
{graysondolan} : Aye
just now • 5:36
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hey beautiful people.
oop.
it's been longggggg.
lowkey haven't been on here but I'm back and more motivated lmao.
hope you like this one even if it's trash. No
i love y'all. <3
-vanessa
