The Unknown: Book 3 {A Bensler Fan Fic}

Chapter 13

The first day of having Kora home, and having all the other kids out of the house, it was weird to say the least. Kora slept in late, and I had time to start working on the graduation party for my three kids that were graduating, and as the years went on, ended up being called the triplets out of wanting to not waste time when calling them all down.

"What time is it?" Kora questioned, as she walked down the stairs, and into the living room, where I sat with my laptop, ordering decorations.

"Almost 11." I replied, and her eyes went wide, as she stopped and rubbed her eyes with her fists.

"How did I sleep that long?" She questioned, and I shrugged, as I looked at her.

"I really don't know. Noah and Alison got in a fight this morning, and were yelling. That work up the whole block, I believe." I replied, and she smiled, before heading into the kitchen. I sat my laptop down, before walking into the kitchen, and watching as my daughter poured orange juice into a cup.

"So, what do you want to do today?" I mused, and she shrugged, as she walked over and placed the cup on the counter, before looking in her weekly pill holder.

"I should probably take my medicine as a starter." She replied, and I nodded quickly.

"That might be a good idea." I said, with a small smile.

"Then could we go do something? Maybe see if Grandma Bernie could meet us in the city? I miss her, and I think that maybe she'd want to discuss my whole sexual orientation thing." She sighed, and I leaned against the counter and bit my lip as I thought about my next statement.

"Kora, maybe you should wait a bit longer before talking about that with them. How about we go shopping or something, and then you have a therapy session at 5. Then after that, we are all meeting up for dinner." I spoke, and she nodded slowly, but I could tell she was upset. 

She wanted to clear the air between her and her very Catholic grandparents, but we just got her back. We don't want to have her destroyed by what they may say, and have her fall back down that dark whole she just climbed out of.

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We went to the mall and got her some new clothes for school, before heading to the precinct. We picked up Charlie from school, because she had a half day, so it was just me and my two girls, before we met up with their father.

"Daddy! I got to spend the day with Kora and Mommy!" Charlie exclaimed, as she sprinted to her father, who was sitting at his desk across from mine. I smiled at how excited she was, and I watched as Kora left my side, and walked over to Amanda, and hugged her. They talked quietly for a few moments, before walking towards the locker room. Amanda stopped next to me and sighed.

"Kora wants to talk for a bit. If anything comes out, like she is harming herself or having thoughts again, I'll tell you. But she just needs someone to talk to." Amanda spoke, and I nodded slowly, and gave her a small smile.

"Thanks." I breathed, and she nodded. She walked towards the locker room, and I headed over to the desks. I sat down at mine, and went through some of the papers that were scattered on the top. I wasn't coming back to work for awhile, but maybe having a clean desk when I come back would be nice.

"So, how was your day with Kora?" Elliot asked, as he bounced Charlie on his lap, as she looked at his badge.

"It was okay. We need to discuss something later. Would you mind if I stole our youngest from you, so she can go help me order the balloons for the party?" I questioned, and Charlie's eyes lit up. She always loves being involved.

"Please, Daddy? I wanna go with Mommy!" She exclaimed, and Elliot laughed.

"You gotta give me a hug first, princess."

After Charlie and Elliot said goodbye, I sent her to say goodbye to Cragen, and I spoke to my husband real quick.

"Kora and Amanda are talking. I'm going to come back and get her once she's done. So just have her call or text me, okay?"

"I think I can do that. It's really cool that you are letting her talk to who she needs to. I'm glad you aren't being forceful." Elliot spoke, and I sighed.

"It's a big step for me, because I want to know everything about my children's lives. But I can deal with this. I don't want her to feel like going back is the only option she'll ever have."

~*~

After Kora's therapy session, she asked if I could take her to see Dakota's grave after dinner. I agreed, but I was nervous. I didn't want anything to set her back, but maybe if she says goodbye, she'll be taking a step forward towards a full recovery.

"What do I do?" Kora asked, as our whole family walked towards the grave. Kora was also nervous, and we were just here in case she needs someone. Then there is a large group of people ready to help her.

"Just say what's on your mind. Put the flowers down. Just do what you need to do, baby." I replied, as I rubbed her back gently.

"What I need to do is go back to that night, and instead of going to the party, I should've told her she could come over and we could just hang out at my place, instead of going to the place she died."

"Ko-"

"No, it's true. It is how I feel. My therapist told me to be honest with my feelings and thoughts, and here I am. I'm being honest. I wish we wouldn't have ever went. We were drugged, and the amount given to my girlfriend was lethal, and killed her."

I didn't know what to say, so I just stood back once we got to Dakota's headstone, and I waited to see what my daughter was going to be honest about.

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