The Unknown: Book 3 {A Bensler Fan Fic}

Chapter 22

We took Josie home two days later, and her memories were patchy. She'd remember some things, but not remember others. It was hard on everyone, so we got to the point that I stayed home to take care of her. To make sure she didn't do anything that might be harmful, or to make sure someone was here if she started to seize again.

"Momma, what does Josie remember about me?" Charlie asked, as I braided her hair before school. I swallowed hard as I looked at the small girl. Josie only remembered the last few months when it came to Charlie. The little girl would be destroyed if she found out her beloved sister didn't remember her anymore.

"Don't worry, princess. You don't need to worry about this." I replied, and I watched as tears grew in her beautiful blue eyes.

"She doesn't really know me, does she?" She whispered, as she looked down at her hands. I walked around the chair and knelt in front of her. 

I ran my hands over her cheeks and then pulled her close.

"She'll remember eventually. She needs to just heal. Figure out what's wrong with those attacks she has. Don't worry, princess." I replied, and she shook her head as she ran to the bathroom and slammed the door, I quickly ran to the bathroom, but even before I could open the door, she had locked it and she was sobbing.

I ran my hands over my own cheeks as I wiped at the tears, but the sound of sniffling sounded behind me, and I turned to see Josie standing in the doorway.

"She's crying because of me, right?" She questioned, and I frowned deeply.

"This is hard on everyone, Josie. She's only 6. She doesn't understand this all the way we do."

"I don't even understand this, and it's happening to me. This is all too much, and you're putting your life on hold because you need to make sure I don't have a seizure. To make sure if I start to remember you can witness it. mom, I want to leave. I want to go away. I want to stop causing drama here because something is fucked up in my brain!" She yelled before storming out too.

I was stuck between my daughters. Charlie was freaking out because she's so young and having your sister forget  most of your life and the memories you've shared was scary. But then there is Josie. She's the one having memory issues. She's the one feeling like she is hurting everyone else because she can't remember.

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I asked Kora to talk to Charlie, and I went to find Josie. She had forgotten that I had a tracker on her phone, cause when I couldn't find her in the house, I was able to see that she had taken a cab, and I was able to get to her.

The place she went was the house she lived in before her parents had died. It was abandoned now, but Josie didn't know that. She didn't even know that this is where she lived, because in her mind, she thought she had memories of Elliot and myself raising her as a baby. Seeing her younger siblings born, but that never happened.

I got out of my car and walked up the path to where she sat on the stairs. Her hair was hanging down over her face, and I saw tears on her cheeks.

"So, how'd you know where this place is?" I asked, as I climbed up the steps and sat next to her.

"I don't know." She replied, as she sat up and propped her head up on her hands.

"Well, wanna know about it?" I asked, and she nodded slowly.

"Please."

"Well, this is where your parents raised you and your brother. They left it to you when you're older, but right now we are just waiting till you are 21 so you can claim it if you want."

"This is mine?" She questioned, surprised.

"Yeah. Wanna take a look around? I know where they hide the key." I smiled softly, and she nodded.

~*~

Josie and I walked around for awhile, before we went out front again.

I sat down on the stairs and she leaned against the railing and looked over at me.

"Grandma and I have been talking about rehab." She spoke, and I looked at her completely confused.

"Rehab? Josie, you aren't addicted to anything. Are you?"

"No. It's a different type of rehab, Mom. To help with the seizures. My memories. I want to remember everything, even the pain. I want to know that if Eli, Meredith, and Ollie ask me about anything, I can tell them everything. I hate causing you issues. You are giving up on your life because I'm a problem. I have to be watched all the time. I hear you come into my room and watch me as I sleep. I saw you put a baby monitor in my room to make sure I'm not seizing in the middle of the night."

"I haven't slept more than an hour a night since the night you got into the car accident. There is no way I'll ever sleep again, because I'll always worry about you. Eventually I'll go back, and Aubrie said she'll help out." I spoke, and she shook her head quickly.

"I'm done, Mom." She whimpered, as she started to cry.

I stood and pulled her close as she started to sob.

This was all too hard for her. I can understand, and it hurts me to think that I can't really help her with this. But if that place can, than I'll be let it happen.

~*~

We always feel like our children are leaving. That our kids are either leaving for college, basic training, or to live their lives. We've had Aubrie and Kora go to a hospital to get mental health, and we've had two kids leave us forever. But every time we lose a child, whether they came back or not, doesn't mean that it hurts any less.

Josie needed the help that this rehab center could give her, since she is suffering from the seizures and from the memory loss.

Maybe this will be the last time we watch a kid walk away from us because they need serious help. Probably not though.

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