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Richie POV

I have been sleeping in that tree house in the woods for awhile now. I haven't really been eating much, or showing up to lunch.

Not like anyone really cares anyways.

That morning when I saw Stanley, a feeling of complete weakness swept over my body, especially how I left like that too. I always leave in situations like that. It's a habit, not a good one.

It makes me feel as if I can't stand up for myself, which is ironic, considering I used to be the schools biggest asshole there was. Now look at me. Eddie made me vulnerable.

Hell if I can go back to that. Not that I want to, it's just I had some meaning in my life back then. I was numb. I had no sense of feeling whatsoever. I was just.. blank.

At least it's better than ruining someone else's lives, right? Specifically Eddie's.

Speaking of Eddie, I had a dream about him last night. Not a very good one, had I wished.

We were hanging out, as we used to, at the quarry. The good ol' times. When we jumped into the water, then us swimming around for a bit.

I had told him I loved him, then was returned with a smack on my cheek.

"Ew gross! You fucking fag!" He spat, which made a tear roll down my face, where his hand just made contact with.

"Who would want to be your friend, you twat!?" He smacked me again, saying this.

He swam away from me, heading up the shore, and leaving. I was alone once again.

When I woke up from the nightmare, I just ended up crying. Hard.

I couldn't bring myself to stop, so just walked to school, tears still spilling from my eyes. The bell had already rung, so I just dragged myself over to a nearby bench, and sobbed into my hands. You already know what happens next.

I cried for quite awhile, but decided to stay on the bench anyways. When the end-of-day bell rang, I still sat there, I finally overcame my tears, yet my face was left stained and my eyes left puffy.

Just after that, I saw Eddie stroll out of the building, with a smile. His smile. Oh how i love it. My face brightened but soon vanished when Eddie looked at me with an expressionless face.

He stood there for a couple seconds, then left, which caused me to sniffle up again.

Just like my dream, he left.

Not much later, Will, Stan, and Bill came walking out. I ignored them and left from the bench. My ass was numb from sitting down too long, but the feeling eventually faded.

When I was walking towards my "house" I decided it was about time I ate. I strolled into a corner store and looked around at the variety of things. I needed to choose wisely on what to get so I would have a supply to last for as long as possible.

I made a final decision and grabbed a couple packs of jerky and dried fruit. I carefully tucked them under my shirt, underneath the brim of my jeans, holding it in place.

I acted normal as if I didn't in fact steal over twenty dollars worth of food then slowly started to approach the door.

I turned a sharp corner from one of the many aisles and bumped into someone.

"O-h..! I'm so sorry I didn't mean to-" I apologized, pushing up my glasses, only to see Eddie standing in front of me. Our eyes only widened to discover who we ran into.

His eye twitched slightly, then backing up and turning around, heading out of the store. I whipped him around, him trembling underneath my grip.

It felt like the beginning again. Back when I called him fag, wheezy, etcetera. When I see to bully him daily. Punch, kick, choke him. But really, all of that directed to Eddie, was really meant for me. What did he do to deserve that? Nothing. Absolutely nothing.

"Punch me." I said blandly, removing my hand from his shoulder.

"W-what?"

"You heard me. It's your time to show me what I deserve, what I have done to you in the past. Go ahead, do it all, say it all, I don't give a shit."

"I'm not going to do that Rich-"

"Why not? I did it to you?"

"That's not the point." He replied, looking down. "I just- ..just leave me alone, okay?? I don't want to talk to you."

"You need to puni-"

"No Richie, you said you loved me. I told you I felt the same this morning. And what do you do? Flee. So now it's my chance to flee too, okay? Let's just go in our opposite directions, got it?" He stammered.

"Gotcha, Eds.."

"And don't call me that." He hissed, walking out. I followed his actions, but took a different route than him.

I had completely forgotten I had stolen the food until I was climbing up the ladder to the tree house, crinkling with every step I took upwards. I made it inside, and took a strip of jerky and ate it, then settling myself in for the night.

Third Person POV

Both Richie and Eddie had dreams about each other that night, but positive ones this time. They somehow both dreamt about them together, having a picnic underneath the constellations made up of stars in the night sky. They cuddled each other, taking in each others warmth, as the frosty wind nibbled at their skin.

However when Richie woke up from his dream, he was in a much better mood than the day prior. Even though what Eddie had said was quite hurtful.

Why is this in third person perspective you may ask? Because Richie won't admit his strong feelings towards Eddie. This is because he's trying his absolute hardest to get over him, as he has stated before.

Eddie on the other hand, woke up in tears. He missed the presence of Richie by him, and how he laid beside him on this very bed. He missed him. Though he had tried. But the thing is, he shouldn't be thinking about Richie at all. He has a boyfriend for fucks sake. This lead to the idea of doing something extra special for Will. But what he didn't want to own up to, is that, yes, he wants to make Richie jealous.

He knows that this whole jealously thing has been going back and forth constantly throughout whatever they even have, but this didn't stop him from trying. He did feel bad though, for Will, being caught in the middle of all of this. He was his friend, and didn't deserve it. But what's really going to hurt, if this plan does work, Will's most likely going to have a meltdown. Eddie was judging this reaction on by how fragile he is.

So right before school, Eddie came up with a plan.

Oooh what do u think Eddie's plan is?? I don't even know myself yet rip, so maybe leave some suggestions? I write along the way so u do take any requests that come my way :)) anyways, thank you guys for reading and 120 views?? Wowie! That's all I really have to tell you guys for now soo