Silver Fox

The Pain Begins Yet Again

"S-Silver?"

"Takashie.." I said and fell to the ground. I fainted. There was so much pain in my body I couldn't handle it anymore. I fainted, feeling my body go limp in the arms of a boy I knew and love. I heard his echoed screams, wasted efforts to try and get me up. My entire body refused to move. Nothing would move. Not even my heavy eye lids, that blocked Takashie from my view. My body was lifted up in a cradled position and carried away.

I woke up to people surrounding me, suffocating me. There was Takashie and his family and all the Foxes. Including on slightly bigger from the rest.

Takashie: "Silver?"

"M.....mhm...."

Takashie: "Your back!" He cried and grabbed tightly onto one of my hands.

Wihu: "Welcome home Shinata!"

"Good to be back? Wait- WIHU??? why are you outside of me?? And why am I human???

Wihu: "well child, you summoned me out of your body and now your are ummm how do I say this lightly...?"

"Just say it?"

Wihu: "Your dyeing....slowly..."

Takashie looked away from me off to the distance. It took me a while to process what was going on. Well, there wasn't much to process. I'm dyeing.

"Can we...fix it...?"

Wihu: "Yes, but I have to remerge with your soul and it won't be a pain-free process."

"I'm aware."

Takashie: "You can take some time to make this decision! You could spend some time....to get better first...then do the painful way...."

"It's fine just do it."

Takshie: "But maybe you could heal without becoming— ya know. And you could be human"

As soon as he said that I was furious and very upset at the same time. What's wrong with the way I was? Well many things, but becoming and animal human again will save my life. I thought he was fine with the way I was. By this point everyone had left us alone to have a more private argument.

"I.....I"

Takashie: "just be smart and stop hurting yourself for once in your life! Don't you think I don't know that you cut yourself and always hurt yourself. Don't you know that it hurts me when you say you want to die. It's always the same with you. The more pain is not the better option ok!"

"But it will save me!"

Takashie: "that probably not the reason why you want to do it."

Tears stung my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. Now Takashie thinks I only do things to hurt myself? I don't....right? The worst part was, that I was too weak to get up and walk away. There was no escape from this dumb fight. I didn't want to fight with Takashie...why are we fighting...? We are supposed to be happy...

"We....shouldn't fight......let's be happy that we're back together again....!"

Takashie: "I cant be happy knowing that you are still going to be hurting and there is nothing I can do about it. I just want to help, but there is absolutely nothing I can do.

"But— you are helping!-"

Takashie: "just stop...I know I'm useless in this situation....."

Takashie walked off with his head down. I watched after him with a heavy stream of water running down my face. But me and Takashie almost never fight...

Wihu: "I'm sorry for whatever has happened...just know that the boy is just really worried about you."

"I....yeah....your right...let's get this over with..."

Wihu: "Are you sure Shinata? It will be even more painful then the first time. It will also be a longer term transformation."

"I'm sure. Just.......go....."

Wihu: "ok."

With that the Fox jumped into my chest hitting all of my pain receivers at once. I yelped out in pain, loosing balance and falling on my knees.

Wihu: "it's ok, calm down Shinata. You need to stay calm. Take deep breaths"

"Ngg....O....k...." I breathed. Heavily gasping for air as I clawed my fingers into the earth to try and ease my pain. Nothing worked. My spine recoiled in pain.

Shugie: "Hey you ok?"

"Y-ya j-just peachy."

"You started the transformation?"

"Ya..." I mumbled. He seemed to understand the fact that I was in pain at the minute and wasn't very talkative. Instead he just sat down beside me and gave me the reassurance of 'simple company'. It was deeply appreciated since I was feeling so lonely since me and Takashie fought.

Just the feeling that somebody caring, just a bit, to sit next to me eased my endless suffering. I switched to sitting down and hugging my knees once my spine decided to kick in. Me and Shugie winced at the sound of each bone in my back cracking one at a time getting smaller and smaller. Millimetre by millimetre, my spine shrank.

Suddenly I felt a huge crack by my tailbone. I screamed out in pain and gritted my teeth.

Shugie: "It hurts that bad huh...?"

"Y....ya...." I replied with a small weak voice

"How long does it last...?"

"Too long...."

"I see......can I get you anything to help the pain...?"

"No....no medicine....that doesn't work for this....."

"Some water to drink?"

I nodded slowly as a reply. My voice was still dry and sore from not drinking for days. Sandpaper stung my throat with each inhale I took. Followed by a burning feeling at every inch of my body. Then finally a crack from my spine. Sharp inhale, burn, crack. It became an endless pattern. A circle of repetitive pain and agonizing suffering. I tugged at the hood of my sweater pulling it over my head. Strands of newly silver hair covered my face, so that I could cry again, but unnoticed.

Once again, Shugie came holding a freshly picked leaf with a small puddle of water on it. I wanted the water, but I didn't want anybody to see me this sad. I played back both options that I had in my head, either I could keep my head down and he would know that something was wrong or I could look up and he would know that something was wrong. Both ways were bad. I decided I just wanted the water and would care about what he thinks after.

I bit my lip trying to hold back even more tears from streaming down my face as I looked up at Shugie.

"It's going to be ok, Silver. You will get through this. And I promise to straighten out my brother soon. Just try and drink this and relax."

He handed me the leaf and nudged me to lay down. I drank the leaf and did as I was told. The ground was moist with fresh morning dew as I laid my head down. I watched Shugie walk away and I let my heavy eyelids close like guillotine blades severing me from the outside world yet again.

A/N Sorry this chapter took so long to come out! I've been a little unmotivated since not a lot of people really don't like my story so far...

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