Silver Fox

Hurts Like Hell-part 1

Silver's POV
I held onto Takashie as tight as possible. I needed him close. Every ounce of my being needed this boy. "Please don't hurt me too...." I whispered into his chest. "I will never hurt you ever. Everyone who hurts you are stupid." He whispered softly back.

"Can we go back home...?"

"Yes. Your really cold...also I'm really sorry for being distant last night...I just-"

"No it's ok...I know your probably not used to a girl in your bed huh?"

"...ya it's just...ya"

"It's ok I'll sleep in my own room so it's not awkward for you."

"...heh...you really are an angel you know?"

"I wouldn't say angel, but I just...I want you to be happy. I want to make up for what I've done."

"Don't worry about any of that! Really. It wasn't you, it was Wihu who made you do it."

"Thank you for understanding me...I know my 'condition' isn't exactly ideal for a girl- uhhh.....I mean....."

"For a girl? What do you mean?"

"I uhhhhh never mind!" I squeaked blushing deeply. I forgot that he never said he felt the same way. Oh but I wish he does soon! I'm not sure how long I can wait before I break-down blushing every time I see him. I think he finally understood what I meant and he started blushing too. It didn't help that our faces were already really close. I could feel is warm breath on my nose.

"Oh....you mean...-"

"Sorry I...."

"You don't have to apologize silly!"

"Your not mad that I....have....feelings.....?"

"I can't be mad at feelings Silver"

"....but there feelings for you..." I blushed even deeper and realized there was no escape. I lost too much blood and I couldn't stand yet. I was stuck there as a blushing mess. I wasn't looking Takashie in the eyes anymore. I couldn't. I was close to tears because he didn't say anything. I was nervous that I couldn't return my feelings....what would I do then...

I would not be able to go back to that house if he didn't. My heart wouldn't be able to handle that. How would I confront him again??? How could I even talk to him without my heart shattering. I bit my lip at the thought of being without the Blue-purple haired boy in front of me.

There was about a minute that passed by after I confessed to him. Then finally he inched closer. Was he really about to kiss me?? Did he like me too??? What??? His lips were so close to mine. But he hesitated....why was he hesitating...?

"...You don't have too..." I whispered backing away from his lips with a tear running down my face. "Your hesitating which means your not certain of your feelings...right?"

Ow....my heart....I would take Wihu's 'fun' over this pain any day....love....hurts like hell....

"....let's get you home..." he said silently lifting me up bridal style. So it is true...he isn't sure....maybe he was about to...kiss me because he pitied me...

I cried slowly all the way home. Takashie wasn't looking at me anymore. I feel like I ruined everything.

As soon as we got home Takashie carried me inside up to the bathroom and sat me on the counter. He walked out and I heard his door close. I brought my knees up and sat there for a while. *sight* it can't be helped I guess. I eased myself off the tall counter carful not to roll my ankle. I closed the bathroom door and locked it.

Turned the shower on and set the temperature, then stripped. The blood smelled horrible it dulled my sensitive sense of smell. I looked at my body in the mirror. I had cuts everywhere. I had old bruises that only have faded. My cheek is still bruised from my mother's hand. My arms had several cuts mostly from myself. I was running out of room to release my pain. I decided that I shed enough blood for a while.

I turned and entered the shower. It was hot and felt good on my cold skin. My hair tickled my lower back in the water. I really need a hair cut. I don't want to be a bother so I won't ask. I always liked my hair being fairly short. I shampooed and conditioned my long silver locks. I missed my brown hair, in fact I missed everything. My mom was right, Shinata is dead. I can't believe I thought I still could be my old self.

I finished washing my hair. I turned off the shower and grabbed a towel. I went to my room changing into my regular clothes. Back to ripped black jeans and a baggy sweater for me.

Takashies door was still closed...I guess he needed to be alone. I decided I needed to do something to make it up to him. I went downstairs and make lunch I looked in the cabinet and realized I didn't have enough time to make something from scratch. So I grabbed one of the macaroni packages and started boiling the water. On the side I decided that I should add some meat to the meal. I grabbed some chicken from the fridge. I cut it into strips and put it on a pan to cook.

Time skip (brought to you by Martha Steward!)

I set the two hot plates on the table after setting it. I put the rest in the middle of the table. Then I walked to the living room. I needed to do something. I was antsy. I walked over to the grand piano and lifted the cover. I set up the piano and hovered my hands above the black and white keys. Then I pressed down on a familiar A minor cord. Then started to sing along to the song in my heart.

(Play the song Hurts Like Hell)

"How can I say this without breaking?
How can I say this without taking over?
How can I put it down into words?
When it's almost to much for my soul alone

I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you

And it hurts like hell

Yeah...it hurts like hell...

A/N OMG THE SONG!!! Yesssssssssssssssss hahaha I made it fit in perfectly!!! Yayayayayayayaya!!! Takashie you jerk-wad go tell her how you feel right now! The lord (author) of this story compels you to make this poor potato feel better!

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