My Thoughts And Other Randomness

rant

First, sorry about not updating. A lot of shit has been going on.

  To start off.. there is this girl. And she is always on my mind I can't get her off my mind. I hate it yet love it. It's painful. So I try to get the pain to go away. This morning I woke up to my brother talking to me. But it was silent because all I could focus on was her. How I didn't want to get out of bed. How I just wanted to curl up there,and stay. My cousin is dead...Killed.. Hit by a car.. I feel like I'm losing the girl. She  has no idea how much I talk about her.. Lord help me.. I feel like I'm losing here. I just want to run away. Cry. Forget it all.. Fml. I wanted to rant about everything..  Now I can't find the words to say..