My headaches like these makes me regret life.. They make me regret everything. They make me regret things I can't control. Like the movements of other people. The wind. Little noises and things like that. Why? Because it intensifies the pain of the headache. It brings tears to my eyes most the time when I have headaches like these. Usually I'll just cry myself to sleep,and wake up,and it'll be okay. The headache's gone.. Nope. Not this time. It feels like someone is hitting me in the head with a baseball bat. It's hell to be typing this. To focus enough to type this. It's hell to think right now. To be alive. Awake. ITS HELL FOR ANYTHING RIGHT NOW. Why am I doing this then? Because if someone tells you that they have a headache that can get this bad,trust me,it can. It makes your eyes hurt. Your head pound. Every little noise,every little light,sends a whole new pain only to make it worse. When my headaches get this bad,I can hear my heartbeat in my ears. And that itself.. Fuck my life. It gets to the point to where I cry and cry. I yell at people when they do absolutely nothing wrong except move. And I can hear it. Feel it. I get angry with the wind. The rain. The thunder. LITERALLY ANY AND EVERY NOISE. And light. Darkness is best for me when it gets like this. Honestly it hurts so bad it's hell to put my head down on anything. Because that makes it hurt worse. FUCK MY LIFE. So shoot me. In the head. And make sure it kills me.
YOU ARE READING
My Thoughts And Other Randomness
AcakJust a messed up guys thoughts,and other random things. Just trying to get through another day,and writing helps with that. Soooo yeah that's about it
