Drowning / SM

Chapter 17

"Holy crap" I swear when Shawn finally reaches us.

He looks first at Teddy and then stares at me... Without saying anything just as if he was reading me but the second he opens his mouth I just run away holding my hand on my mouth and trying to find the bathroom.

I walk upstairs, trying to hold back everything before I throw up what I ate earlier.

I ask some people for the bathroom or the toilets and when I find them I throw up everything I was holding back.

Sexy.

I'm leaning over the toilets, regretting what I ate or drunk earlier. My stomach and my throat hurt so bad, I feel like a headache is coming up, my top got dirty because of my vomit and to fit everything, my hair is gluing on my cheeks because of the sweat.

Life is going well. Life is great.

I was trying to pull away all my hair to try to keep it clean but I feel two hands holding it for me and raise it up.

After a while, when I finished throwing up like a little baby or more like a lama, I turn back to see who was helping me and get surprised when I see Shawn standing behind me.

"Do you feel better?" he asks, cuddling my back.

"What are you doing here?" I ask in turn, trying to get up to the sink to wash my mouth and my face.

"Helping you." he begins and I look at him in the mirror "...do you have any band or something to tie your hair?"

What is he doing? Isn't he supposed to hate me such as I hate him? Isn't he supposed to mock me instead of helping me?

I just shake my head a little to pull away from those thoughts and start tieing my hair with the band I had on my wrist.

I thank him for helping me and start walking out but he stops me by holding my arm.

"Wait..." he waits for a little like if he wanted to know if I'd rather stay or not but when I finally wait he holds the edge of his hoodie and takes it off "here..." he holds it out to me and clears my mind when I frown. "You stained your top with your  vomit and you're very pale so I thought that you'd feel better in a warm and cozy clothing..."

I take it and he gets out from the bathroom.

What the hell did just happen?

Misunderstanding.

I just don't really realize what happened and put on the hoodie he gave me before I get back in the kitchen where I left Teddy.

"Hey!! you ran away such as a robber! where were you." Teddy says while laughing.

"I threw up" I reply and he makes a grimace of disgust which makes me laugh.

"Ewww... We-" He starts but is cut off by Jenny.

"What a nice hoodie I see you wearing!..." Oh no... These are the problems. "Where did you buy it?" She asks.

She clearly wants to get me in a trap. She knows and I'm not going to leave this party alive.

"Umm...I-I" I start stuttering, not knowing what to say and looking for an eye contact with Teddy because I really need help right now but this dork next to me is just looking at us, hiding behind his drink.

Oh god.

Should I tell her?

"I don't remember... I bought it a while ago." I lie because I don't want to argue with her and because I know that she's the kind of girlfriend who's very jealous.

"I don't believe you! You're a just a liar. A bitchy liar." She shouts at me through the loud music which is playing.

"Well... I don't care" I say and leave her alone with Teddy.

I'm clearly not doing this again. I'm not going to get angry or anything because she's just getting out from my nose holes.

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" I shout as loud as I can when I get outside. I just want to feel free and to chill, even one night. Without her.

Is it too much to ask to feel free? Remove all the weights from my shoulders at least during a party? An evening where I can fully enjoy the people around me, music and food. One evening before waking up and going back to reality ... with people I want to strangle from the depths of my soul.

I shouted my throat out to evacuate all my anger but I jump when I feel a hand on my shoulder.

I thought I was alone outside.

"Hey... you okay?"

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Hello everyone! I hope you liked this chapter and I think you liked it because there is Shawn in it. Tell me what do you think about it and who do you think it is at the end...

I love you all.

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