When Mr.Rude Meets Ms.Love ✔

Chapter 89

Recap: Isha questioning Sharan - Sharan willing to reveal the truth - Isha refusing to hear it.

Sharan's PoV
Finally I got the most deserving gift for hiding everything from Ishu. I can't win her trust once again back. She is a poor soul. How much did I hurt her ?? Then also she forgave me for my every single mistake and loved me more. What did I give her in return? More and more pain!!! Isn't it?? Why should she trust me again? Why should she hear my bloody secrets which I didn't will to share with her earlier? To bear more pain? for getting more hurt..???

No way..for once it's okay...second time also ok..and when I am repeating these again and again how can a woman bear so much...its over Sharan...she lost the belief on you.
Even if I reveal the truth now it will add more pain and also she don't want to hear anything now. I deserve this.

I moved towards Isha's side on bed where she is sleeping after sobbing for a long time. Tear marks are visible on her face which wrenched my heart. I slowly wiped her face and pecked her forehead without disturbing her sleep.

"I am sorry Isha..I know you hates me...but I will always love you no matter how much you hates me..."

I moved towards the couch to get some sleep which I failed to get till now.
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Ishana's PoV: At Morning
I woke up rubbing my eyes. I looked at the clock to find its 8 am already. Oh god. I have slept a lot. I found that Sharan's side on our bed is empty. A flashback of yesterday's events passed through my mind giving me a shivering through out the body. I saw him sleeping on couch. I clenched my fist in anger.

Sharan, I really wants to hate you now. But how much I tries, I can't. I don't know why. May be because you are the reason for me to live now. I am becoming weak when comes to your love. You made me like this Sharan. I loved you a lot such that even your single step of hiding things from me hurting me a lot. Why are you doing this to me Sharan? Why can't you trust me? That day when you shared your past with me, do you know how much happy I was? I thought that I am that most important person in your life so that you shares the secrets of your life that your angels even don't know. I was a proud wife that moment. I believed your promise of not hiding anything more from me. I was so happy to get you as my husband. But then also. You won't change Sharan. You are still living in a shell created by yourself where no one else have permission to enter. Your happiness, your sorrow, your past, your secrets...that only matters to you. When would you understand that I loved the Sharan accepting all his flaws and past? Nothing matters to me if you are willing to share everything with me. But you won't. Your insecurities won't ever go Sharan.

Why should I think about him? I know I don't need anyone to live. Let him live in his own world and I have my own world. I touched my belly.

I moved towards the couch with a blanket and covered him with that. I slowly touched his cheek.

"Sharan you are so cruel. You are again making me weak. Do you know how much I loved you? I know you will not cheat me with another girl. I know there is no girl in your life other than me. But the things you are hiding from me are more complicated than it. No Sharan. This time I will not forgive you for breaking your promise. You are a liar. I dont allow you to cheat me once more with your fake promises. I won't be a puppet for you anymore."

I went towards the kitchen and prepare a coffee for myself. I drunk it sitting on the dining table. I dont know how much time I sat like that. I was brought back to the world by Janimaa's continous shaking.
"What happened Isha? Why are you crying?" She asked.
It was a realization that I was crying continuously till now. I wiped my tears.