So after screwing up so bad last night with Joe, I got right in the shower to try and make myself feel clean. I scrubbed every inch of my body, but still felt dirty. I put on a pair of Darren's Nike shorts and a sports bra. I cuddled with his pillow and kept smelling it to try and make myself calm down. What would Darren say if I told him? O yeah Darren, by the way, I slept with Joe last night.. Like honestly this was reallly bad! I grabbed the labtop off of the floor and logged into facebook. I went on my profile and looked through pictures of me and Darren for awhile. I then went to Joe's account to see what he had. Most of his pictures were with the group of people that I was now calling friends, but there was an album labeled "High School." I quickly clicked on it, and there I was, in EVERY picture!! I just wasn't tagged. I looked as happy with him as with Darren, but the pictures with Joe looked more real.. I was ALWAYS happy when I was with Joe.. Darren and I have always butted heads, but Joe never ever argued with me when we dated.. I guess it was different because we didn't live together.
As I was thinking about this, skype appeared and I had an invite to join Darren in a chat. I quickly accepted and waited for it to load. His hair was all gelled and he already looked drained.
"Hey baby."--Darren said
"Heyy.."
"Something wrong.. you never texted me back or called.. I was worried about you.. Did you have fun with everyone?"
"I'm sorry Darren, I just found my phone in the bottom of my bag.. I had a lot of fun.. everyone is sooo nice! We partied all night and watched movies."--I lied
"Glad you found some new friends Lils.. Next time text or call me once in awhile... You made me nervous bave."
"I'm sorry Dare, so how is eveything with you so far?"
"Alright, I really miss you.."
"I miss you too."--I felt the tears streaming down my face now
"Lils!! Don't cry baby! I will be back soon.. Next time I'm bringing you with me.. I can't take not being with you."
"Me either.."
"Well I have to go honey, I will call you tomorrow morning."
"Ok, bye Love you Dare."
"Love you too Lils."
With that the chat ended. I cleaned myself up and made dinner. I listened to a CD of Darren's music so i could pretend like he was here. My phone vibrated in my pocket, but I ignored it. No one but Darren mattered and he wasn't calling me til the morning. I crawled into bed that night with Darren's blanket and pillow tightly around me.
