At 9:30 the next morning I was making last minute preparations for Joe. I set the table and started making pancakes, with peanut butter chips in them. I remembered how we used to eat them ar his house before school.. I would go over there as soon as I woke up so I wouldn't have to deal with my Dad.. Anyway, I was ready to make this work, I needed Joe back in my life even if I wouldn't admit it. He never did anything to me that I didn't want.. Even the other night, you do what you want when your drunk and I was so that proves my point. I couldn't fight it so atleast it wouldn't be awkward if we became close friends again.
-Bzztt-
I went to the door inmediately and opened it to find a sleepy looking Joe with two carmellattes and a bix of doughnuts. I led him into the kitchen and once he put the box down on the counter, I jumped into his arms.
"thank you Joe!"- I said with a grin
"no problem Lily, are those peanut butter chip pancakes?!"-- He asked raising his right eyebrow and smiling
"umm.. Yeah.. I mean i remembered eating them all the time with you and thought it would be nice to show you that I remember stuff too.."-I said trailing off
He gave me another squeeze and then sat down. We talked about careers for awhile. Him talking about the group that I had met including Darren that was called "Team Starkid" and the musicals they did, and me talking about the writing I had done. I always told him when we were younger that I wanted to be a writer, so it was nice to see someone proud of me for achieving something. I showed him my published childrens book that I also illustrated and then we sat down on the couch to watch one of his plays that he had on dvd. I was kinda angry that Darren never told me about this stuff.. Did he not trust me? He knew I liked Harry Potter too!! And he played Harry Potter in this musical!!! The whole show was amazing, or as the Starkids said: Totally Awesome! The best part was when Joe tap danced as Voldemort! I was laughing so hard, I started to cry.
The show ended after about three hours, and I decided we should just order pizza for dinner. We got pepperoni and extra cheese, both of our favorites! Joe went through the movies I had and picked "The Notebook", I immediately disagreed.
"Joe!! You know I cry during that movie why cant we watch a comedy!"
"We can cry together, I haven't seen this in ages Lily!"
"Your a guy, you shouldnt sit around and watch the notebook a lot!"
"Well im gonna start doing that, right now"
So there we were, me crying my eyes out as the young couple broke up, and Joe stroking my hair. I forgot it was Joe and found myself laying my head in his lap, and I didnt want to make it awkward when I did realize it, so I just stayed there. Halfway through the movie, my cellphone rang. I pulled it out of my pocket and sat up. It was Darren.. I walked into the kitchen and answered.
"hello?"
"heyy babe, whats up?"
"just hanging out.."
"O yeah? Who did ya invite over, Lauren? You two probably get along well.."
"No, actually its Joe.. We are catching up.. We got pizza and are watchin some tv."
"...."
"Dare? You there?? Hellooo??"
"I'm here, yo shouldn't be alone with Joe.. He will toy with your emotions Lily."
"Your mad.. You only call me Lily when your mad.. Look we are just friends, I promise nothing will happen, trust me? Please?"
"I trust you, its him I dont trust.. I gotta go.."
"Ok Darren.. Love you.."
"And I love you too sweetie.. Please dont do anything stupid"
So there I was.. Standing in the kitchen. Now I was getting mad because he didnt trust Joe. Joe would never do anything sober... Unless I was ok with it.. Right? I walked back into the room and Joe was falling asleep. I smiled at how adorbale he looked, his cap falling over his closed eyes.. I layed my head back in his lap, and he noticed.. He stretched his arms and then pulled me onto his chest, thinking I was asleep. He played with my hair for a little while, but then his one hand went down to my waist. I figured now was a good time to stir, and did just that. I acted confused and looked into his eyes. I could tell he was fighting back the urge to do things. I wasnt though, screw Darren, as soon as he found out about the other incident, he would break up with me anyway... I put my arms around his neck and he picked me up. He hwld me up against te wall and stared at me.
"Lily, I want you so bad, but I cant do it.. Darren is my friend.. Even if I am mad that your with him.."
"Joe, please, just kiss me.. I miss you, I really do.. Darren is great, but I still love you.."
"Then break up with him and be with me!"-he yelled
"i.. I cant.."
"Damn it why not?!"
"I love him too Joe!! I wish I never met him cuz I fell for him hard and before that I was just waiting for you!! Of course after about a year and a half with Darren we meet up!!"
"If you didnt run off then we would still be together!"
"O ok, so I should have stayed and gotten the shit kicked out f me at home so I could be with you?!"
He stopped, knowing not to go farther. He still had a firm grip on me and it tightened as he came closer. We were soo close.. Then I did it.. I kissed him. He roughly responded, and a minute later, he was on top of me on the couch. His hands went under my shirt and mine unbuttoned his pants. His tongue was now in my mouth exploring and after getting my shirt off, he grabbed my arms and pinned me down. He was proving how strong he was now, my bra was off and he was nibbling on my ear. I let out a moan and struggledto free my arms, he pulled my arms above my head and held them with one arm. The other massage my breasts as he kissed down my neck.
"God Lily, I want you to be mine so fuckin bad!"
"You can have me!!"-I yelled
"No,your with Darren, you wont break up with him, you two are perfect, your wedding will be just grand!"-He growled.
He got up and pulled his clothes back on. I layed there out of breath and waited for him to say something else.
"Lily, I want to, believe me, but it would be wrong. The last time wouldnt hae happened if I was soner either.. Im sorry, we will never be more than friends if your with Darren, but if you want me, I will always be waiting to be taken back, I really do love you."
He handed me my clothes and I quickly threw them back on. Then I hugged him, not wanting him to leave.
"I will see you Saturday.. Darren said he is coming back for his day off and we are all gonna party.."
"Sounds good. Dont worry, I wont tell him anout anything, your happy with him.."
"Thank you Joe"
"No problem"
