| Raegan |
You would think after eight long months of Diego being gone I'd eventually be okay.
The thing was I wasn't okay. Not at all. To me it seemed like some sort of bad dream I prayed I would wake up from.
Eight months without Diego. No texts, no calls, no nothing. He deleted social media. I now knew what it was like for everyone when I went MIA. Except this is different.
Diego seemed to disappear off of the face of the earth.
I know it's what he wanted, but it wasn't what I wanted. I tried everything I could to find him.
I reached out to Tana and Grace I was that desperate to know where he left to.
Grace had even confessed to me that her baby wasn't his and we both texted Diego that, hoping it would bring him back or reply but that's when his phone was disconnected.
That's how I guess knew he was alive but was he safe? Was he eating properly? Did he start taking pills again? Every day all these questions ran through my mind. It broke my heart not knowing. I missed him so damn much.
I did end up staying at the house he left me but it just made things so much worse. I would wake up from nightmares and he wouldn't be there next to me to comfort me.
My anxiety has been worse than its been in a very long time. I don't know why he would think leaving would be the best for me.
I need him. I need him here with me. I'm broken without him.
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"Raegan you have to get up its almost three in the afternoon" Ethan said pulling the blanket off of my body
"No" I sniffled curling back into a ball
I heard him huff and then jump on the bed next to me. I closed my eyes not wanting to look at him.
"I know it's hard. Trust me. I miss him too. As I recall though he wanted you to be happy not spending all day in bed crying" Ethan said moving some hair out of my face
I was quiet. Ethan was right and I hated him for it.
"Brielle just got done making lunch so get dressed and come eat with us" Ethan said kissing my forehead and getting up to leave my room.
I unwilling did what Ethan told me to do. I changed out of one of Diego's old shirts and put on a clean one of mine and some pants.
I heard my phone go off, ignoring it figuring it was Jess or Ethan being annoying tell me to hurry.
I put my hair in a messy bun and made my way downstairs.
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I need you.
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Nothing really new just the beginning part 🥰
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