Broken || lil xan

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A knock on my car window caused Me to jump in my seat and let out a small scream. I hadn't left the rehab yet. I soon as I got in the car I started crying.

I attempted to wipe my tears and rolled down my window to see Olivia standing there with a sad smile on her face.

"I'm sorry you didn't know sweetheart. If you still want to see him he'll be out of isolation on Thursday and he'll be leaving the facility next Monday" Olivia said crouching down to look at me

"Thank you" I said with a sniffle

She gave me one last smile before walking away. I took a deep shaky breath. I don't want to see him.

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Raegan
I'm coming over.

I didn't wait for a response back from Jess. I don't care if she's busy or not. We are talking about this.

I pulled into the drive way and quickly got out, I walked inside without knocking as usual.

"Jess?" I called out when I didn't see or hear her

"Yeah?" I heard her call out

I followed the sound of her voice which came from the backyard. She was sitting on the patio table with a blunt in between her fingers and a drink in her hand. She wasn't alone either. In the seat next to her was Blake and to my surprise next to him was Tana as well as some other girl with dyed blonde hair.

"I need to talk to you" I told her completely ignoring the other three

"About what?" She asked taking a hit from the blunt

"Diego" I said growing more irritated

Jess sighed and got up to follow me inside. I seen the girl who's name I didn't know shift in her seat when I mentioned Diego's name. Once we were out of hearing range of the noisy bitch I let loose.

"You fucking lied to me!" I hissed slightly shoving Jess back

"What?" She asked shocked, regaining her balance from the shove

"You Knew Diego was at the place the whole fucking time! You were visiting him!"

"Wha- no! I swear I- Rae I didn't" Jess tried explaining but kept stumbling over her words

"You're suppose to be my best friend! You said all those shitty things about him but went behind my back and went to visit him!? You knew I was hurting without him and you knew where he was!" I yelled, tears once again falling down my cheeks

"He asked me not to tell you Rae... I'm sorry fucking sorry!" Jess said holding out a hand which I slapped away

"I-I don't understand why" I cried "how could you"

"You don't think it hurt me not to tell you? He was so fucked up the first time he called me he wasn't even forming full sentences! I went to find him laying in a pool of his own fucking vomit! I never seen him so bad raegan, and the whole time he was crying out for you! You don't think I wanted to call you and tell him he needed you? He begged me not too and I didn't!" Jess said tears now forming in her eyes

"You still could've called me if he was that bad! Did you bring him pills in the facility?"

When she looked away and didn't answer I took that as a yes.

"I... I don't think we can be friends anymore Jess"

With that I left, if I waited for her to respond it just would've made things worse. I never thought I would say something like that to Jess. The one person who was there for me through everything with Diego. We've been through so much and it hurt to end it.

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