You know I'm absolutely fucking tired of crying. I'm so tired of it. You'd think I'd be drained from how many damn tears I've cried.
I was in no condition to drive but I didn't want to ask Ethan to pick me up because I didn't want to answer the questions he was going to ask me. Instead I took my sweet time getting home stopping to wipe away my tears every so often.
I hoped that when I got home that I'd be able to slip past Ethan but as always I was wrong. It was as if he was waiting for me. When I walked inside the house he was standing in the doorway into the living room with his arms crossed and a sad look on his face.
Without a word he came up to me and pulled me into a hug. I responded to the hug by wrapping my arms tightly around his waist and buried my face in the crook of his neck.
"Jess called me" Ethan said after a minute of silence
My body stiffened at the mention of her name but should've figured she would have called him. I tried to pull away from him, he just tightened his hold on me.
"It hurts me to say this raegan but... maybe it's for the best he's leaving" Ethan whispered in my ear
When I tried to pull away again Ethan let me. I looked up at my friend who had tears threatening to spill from his eyes.
"I know you love him baby but he's caused so much damage and he's not making anything better. He's only breaking you down more. He's still as toxic for you as when y'all first were together. I think it's time to let go" Ethan said sadly
God why was he right? I hated that he was so right. But Diego needs me. Who else does he have? Who's going to be by he side? Then again he was secretly having Jess visit him and shit. I don't know. I don't know.
Maybe it is time that I let go of Diego.
