It's better this way. That's what I kept telling myself. He's leaving to Nevada anyways. How am I suppose to go see him when he's so far away?
It isn't going to be this way forever. I still love him and I always will. I just think we both need to get our minds in the right place, before we continue on with our relationship.
He'll always be my first love and no one can replace him. He always will have my heart.
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When the doorbell rang for the third time I groaned. Clearly Ethan wasn't going to get it so I hopped off my bed and run downstairs to answer the door before the annoying sounds rang through the house again.
I quickly opened the door and before I could even see who it was I was greeted with a hard slap in the face.
"What the fuck" I gasped as I stumbled back surprised from the hit
"The fucking nerve you have!" Jess hissed
I straightened myself up and looked to see Jess still standing in the door way with an pissed of expression.
"What the fuck is your problem!?" I asked holding my cheek which stung
"My problem? What the fuck is yours??? Diego needs you and you think it's a good fucking idea to let go?"
By this time she pushed her way into the house. Of course Diego told her.
"You are so selfish Raegan!"
Me selfish?
"In his most vulnerable state your just going to leave him? Like he's nothing? Do you not know what he's going through?" Jess yelled getting closer and closer to me with every word she spoke "You're fucking someone else aren't you? That's why? It's Ethan isn't it?"
My head was spinning with how fast she was talking and with all these questions. As soon as she accused me of sleeping around with Ethan I lost it.
I shoved her away from me as hard as I could.
"Fuck You! Do you think that its an easy decision for me to do? No it fucking isn't! What about what I'm fucking going through? I thought he was dead for so damn long Jessica and you knew how worried I was and didn't say shit! I spent countless nights in my room crying, not eating, and thinking of different ways I could end it all!" I yelled trying with all my might not to cry "Do you even know that Ethan had to take me to the hospital? He got me to the hospital before I bled out and before the pills took effect. I love Diego with my whole heart but he's not the only one going through a hard time!"
"Rae" Jess whispered with a sad expression on her face "I'm so sorry I didn't know"
She started taking a few steps toward me and I help my hand up to tell her to stop. She's going to come into my house and hit me and shit and then expect me to let her hug me or some shit. No.
"Just See him tomorrow before he leaves okay? He really needs it" Jess said giving me a hopeful look
"Go please" I whispered, tears now falling down my cheeks.
Everything is a mess.
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If your gonna leave a negative comment please don't comment at all 😊
^Still relevant lol
Anyways I did a thing 😂🤷🏽♀️
First chapter will be up hopefully soon
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