eyes closed, i'm awake

f o u r - be my escape

You told me today you had to get out,

you were running around the apartment

in nothing but cotton pants and two

different socks

You were brushing your face with your hands,

muttering words under your breath

"Stop," you said and I reached my hand out

but you pushed away from where you

were standing and continued

to find things you had no idea you were

looking for and then you stopped

"What are you doing?" you asked me,

"why aren't you packing?"

and I could only watch as you turned your

gaze back to the floor and brought

a hand to your shortly cut hair and I remembered

how I missed your brown eyes that were so

alive and full of interest,

now replaced by two dull orbs that looked around

So apathetic, so distant and cold

like the winter night when we were out

smoking

The difference was

you were smiling and you held

my hand in an attempt to warm it when

you were just as cold

And you had kissed me, and we had whispered

sweet things meant for only each other

but look at us now:

drifting apart but tied together;

what's stopping us, really?

Cut the ropes, be free

We fear being alone, we're in love but our love's not

enough to make us happy

We're miserably in love, but baby

I love you; isn't that what counts?

And you returned to me, gently pressed me to the wall

and attached your lips to mine,

whispering roughly, "I'm begging you to be my escape."