eyes closed, i'm awake

s e v e n t e e n - in my veins

I am your devoted,

spellbound lover

with hell in her eyes

and your demons

printed on a fragile

piece of paper that

is my thoughts

Your boiling blood

runs through my

veins and it is

angry

You told me,

"I am a person of bad blood"

and I believe I am too

For you I've shed tears

and blood and today

it was black

like the darkest

midnight sky

or the color of my

nails,

your coffee that you

claim reflects your

soul or the water

on a dark autumn afternoon

You have found a way

to get under my skin

and deeper than that

You're in my veins,

you are the pumping

of my heart

You are the numbness

in a November-storm

and you are the heat

in a July-afternoon

You are everything

from sweet kisses

to lingering touches

You are in my veins

and I want you out

I want to love

you but

you are no longer 

the same

We promised to

never let each other go

but I'm losing 

your hand

in a mist

I no longer

wake up to 

be kissed,

no longer touch

you when I can

I feel your lips to

my skin,

and you mumble 

into my shoulder,

"don't stop loving me"

and I know I never will