The Moon. (Newt fanfic)

Chapter: 14

  I stood and leaned on the doorway to homestead, watching the sun rise over the maze walls. It was so pretty of a morning. Moments like this are what make the glade great.

I turned around and sat back down in the chair next to Newt. I hadn't slept at all, I had read all night and hoped for Newt to wake up soon. I was getting really worried that he might not wake up. 'But he will!' I argued with myself. 'Ugh... why was caring for someone, so much work?' I sighed and went back to my book. I had now finished three books of the Harry Potter series. From the time they came up from the box and I started reading them three weeks ago I had loved these books.

  I was currently reading The Goblet Of Fire and I was screaming internally, for Harry to win and collect the egg and was almost frightened at the sound of someone stirring next to me. I pulled myself out of book into harsh reality. On the bright side Newt was waking up!

  I immediately jumped up from my chair, making my book fall and hit the ground, losing my place. I looked up at Newt who was starting to sit up. I angrily hit his arm.

"You complete arse!" I exclaimed. "You made me have a panic attack through the night and now this...? That's just cruel." I yelled at him as I pointed to my book.

  He looked at me with fear in his eyes. I picked up my book and crossed my arms, huffing in frustration. I turned away from him running my fingers through my hair, in frustration. 'What am I saying?' I asked myself.

'What I'm saying is that, he shucking made me wait until was time to wake up, for the other gladers, to wake up!' Calm Luna, calm. Breathe. Luna breathe. I took a deep breath and looked back at him.

His eyes were filled with so much fear. I felt bad for doing that to him.

"I'm sorry. I'm just very edgy." I said.

"It's okay." He said, softly. I walked over and took a seat next to the bed and grabbed his hand. He didn't pull away thank goodness.

"How are you feeling?" I asked him. He looked at his leg and then back to me.

"Well considering what happened, like klunk." He said. His face was so broken.... he was broken. I felt tears in my eyes, and I felt one fall.

"Hey don't cry." He looked at me and wiped the tear away.

"I thought I lost you." I cried. "I thought you were gone. Why did you do it, Newt?"

"It had to be done, love. I don't feel like this life is worth living anymore." He said. Tears fell from his eyes now, too.

"Please, don't do it again." I begged. "If you won't do it for yourself, do it for me!"

I looked at him, tears falling down. He looked down. He looked like he was debating on if he should live or not.

"Why does it matter? Why do you care? You'd be happier without me, you all would." He said. I felt my heart break at his words. I looked down at my wrists.

"I care, because... I... I don't want to lose you. Your my best friend and if I lost you I would lose myself. So, please. I can help you. We can help each other." I pleaded. That's not what I wanted to say. I knew why I cared for him, I just didn't want to admit it.

"What do you mean together?" He asked confused. I took a deep breath and rolled my sleeves up and showed him, the scars I had. The places I had cut. His eyes widened and he gasped. Newt took his hand out of mine and grabbed my wrist.

"Whe-... how...? Why didn't you tell me?" He asked.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I shot his question back. He looked into my eyes. I looked into his soft brown one. They held sadness and anger. It was very sad to see. He thought about it.

"I thought that nobody would care. I thought that maybe once I was dead nobody would have to worry about another person or another mouth to feed. I thought that you'd be better off without me." His words made me tear up even more.

"I'm so sorry. I had no idea you felt this way. I'm a horrible person. I didn't notice how much you were suffering." I sobbed and hugged him. He was shocked at first, but then hugged back.

"Ahem!" I heard a voice from from door. I jumped out of Newts warm embrace and looked at the door. Nick, Clint, and Jeff stood there.

"Sorry." Newt and I mumble. I saw a slight smile on Nick's face, but just as soon as it appeared it went away.

"You can get some sleep, Luna." Nick said.

"Bu-" I tried to argue with him, but he shot me a look that told me, I didn't have a choice. I looked at Newt. Who gave me a reassuring look. I grabbed my stud and went to my room. As soon as my head hit the bed I feel asleep.

(A/N- Sorry I haven't updated lately, but I had writers block and I haven't been feeling well. I hope you liked this chapter and I'm sorry it's kinda boring and short, but like I said I have writers block. If you have any ideas, feel free to message me! :) XOXO)