•our little secret• G.D (COMPLETED)

twenty five

Grayson's POV

I drove down to the airport to pick up Maya. She just got back from college in another state.

I pulled up and there she was, suitcase and all. She got in the passenger seat. She was obviously happy. We caught up and everything on the drive home. I told her about Aniyah, and she really wanted to meet her.

Grayson: Maya?

Maya: yeah gray?

Grayson: i miss him

She stayed quiet for a second and then looked me directly into my eyes.

Maya: i do too

Grayson: why'd he have to go?

Maya: i don't know, we all will have to go someday

Grayson: but, he just killed himself, why didn't I help him?

Maya: it's okay, you didn't cause this, he needed help and he thought that was the only way for the pain to stop

Grayson: i wish i knew... before

Maya: everyone does, but everyone has their secrets

Maya: if you're ever feeling like that, talk to me, okay? I can get you some help

Grayson: sometimes it feels like he's just in the other room, but when i go into his room, nothings there except for his old things.

Grayson: sometimes i go into his room and lay on his bed, and just start crying

I could feel myself tearing up. A few tears streamed down my face but I wiped them away.

Grayson: i still remember his laugh, his smile, his everything

Maya: we'll see him one day

One day...

*****

I was just laying on my bed, thinking.

I miss him so freaking much. Why'd he have to go?

I felt like crying my eyes out, just at the thought of him.

And what Maya said, nobody could help me from this.

I should've helped Ethan.

What if I could just go be with Ethan? I could finally see him, and never leave him.

I can't tell aniyah this, I can't.

Maya: GRAYSON! DINNER IS READY!

I walked downstairs and sat at the table with Zaria. My mom didn't live with us, idk why. So I was the man of the house when Maya wasn't home.

We ate our food and I walked back up to my room.

I heard a familiar voice, suddenly.

"Grayson?"

I stopped at my door, hand on the knob, ready to walk in.

It was Ethan's voice.

I ran to his room and swung open the door.

Nobody was there.

"It's just your imagination, he's not coming back Grayson." I said to myself.

I closed his door slowly, like I always used to, when I put him to bed late at night.

I went into my room, shutting the door, and turning off the light. I shut my curtains and it was pitch black in my room besides a little nightlight in the bathroom.

I grabbed a pillow and sat in fetal position, laying my head on the pillow.

Grayson: Ethan.. please come back, I need you here

I could practically feel him next to me. But I couldn't see him.

This is my fault.

*****

My phone started ringing and I grabbed it off my dresser. It was braiden. I answered him, trying my hardest not to sound like I was crying, when I was. 

Grayson: hey bro

Braiden: yo! wanna hang out?

Grayson: with all the boys? and where?

Braiden: yeah... and probably just the club or we can hang out at someone's house

Grayson: oh umm.... sure

Braiden: you okay bro?

Grayson: yeah, I'm fine.

Braiden: ok, just making sure, we'll pick you up at 7.

Grayson: ok, bye

Braiden hung up and I put my phone down. I got ready because I hadn't got ready all day.

I heard the doorbell ring and ran downstairs.

I opened the door and there was Braiden and Evan.

Braiden: you ready?

Grayson: yep, let's go

We walked out to the car and drove off.