•Bittersweet (Ryan Sitkowski)• COMPLETED

Explain To Me Everything You Ever Did { 27 }

Jessica

I wobble into the front door, Ryan behind me with my hospital bag that had my personal items in it.

"Home sweet home," I sigh, flopping back onto the couch. Ryan smiles softly at as he closes the door before walking over to me. He grabs a throw book and puts it underneath my leg.

I roll over onto my side and look at him as he sits down in the recliner.

"God. This feels nice." He says, leaning his hair back. My eyes drift to the sling cast that went from below his elbow all the way down to below his knuckles.

I grimace. "How's your arm doing?"

He opens one of his eyes and look down at the white cast. "It's fine, I guess. Feels weird, especially since I can't play at band practice. I just sit there and write riffs while they practice."

"That sucks," I say, looking up at the ceiling.

Neither one of us talks. Silence envelopes us but I can't tell whether or not it is uncomfortable or something else.

Glancing over, I look at Ryan who is just chilling peacefully in the recliner. I start to chew on my bottom lip as I think about what he admitted when I was in my coma.

"Ryan?" I ask softly.

"Hmmm?" He hums in response.

"What's going on with us?" I say gently.
He sits up and looks at me.

"What do you mean?" He responds very carefully.

I chew on my bottom lip again before looking at the floor. Sitting up, I make a decision.

"I- um. I- I heard you," I stutter.

"What?" He looks confused. "I would think you heard me, considering you answered?"

"I heard you... when I was in the coma. I heard everything you said." I look up at him under my eye lashes.

His eyes are wide and his face is pale. He looks like he could be sick at any moment. I scratch my arm and look down again.

"Did you... Did you mean it? What you said?" I don't bother to look up, afraid he'll say that it was all a lie and he doesn't really love me. I hear a shuffling noise and then I feel something lift my chin up. Brown eyes meet my own as Ryan moves to his knees.

"Jessica..." he starts. I could feel the tears forming as I look down. I was right. He doesn't actually love me. Ryan forces my chin still. "I mean it," he whispers.

My body freezes and my heart stops.
"What?"

"I love you. And only you. And to be honest, I think I have for a while. I don't want to say that's why I was an asshole to you because then it wouldn't be the truth. I don't know why I acted that you towards you but I am sorry. I'm so sorry for everything. For all the lies, all the rumors, all the times I cornered you, all the times I pissed you off. I'm sorry. It took almost losing you in a crash to make me realize that. I know that sounds like some corny LMN movie but it's true. I love Jessica from the very tip of you beetlejuice themed painted toes all the way to the top of your violet hair. I love your laugh, your personality, your interests, music, hobbies. Everything. The fact that you're smoking hot is an added bonus."

I smack his shoulder slightly as he laughs.

"But yes, Jessica. I do mean it. I love you."

Staring into his eyes, I can see it. He is telling the truth. I bite my lip and look at him.

"I love you, too, Ryan," I whisper. "I have ever since high school. Even when I hated you."

He gives me a half smile before brushing the hair back from my face.
"I love you," he breaths, cupping the side of my face. As he leans forward, I close my eyes.

Soft lips meet mine in a sweet kiss. Carefully, I wrap my hands around the back of his neck and kiss him back. After a minute, he pulls away and pecks me one last time. Resting his forehead against my own, he exhales deeply before chuckling slightly.

"Be mine?" He asks.

I kiss him again before burying my face in his neck.
"Of course."

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Awwwwwwwww. It finally happened!!!!!  And now. As much as I hate to say it, but we are nearing the end. Maybe only 5 chapters left with the epilogue included. Sadly there will be no sequel unless one of you guys would like to write one, continuing Ryan and Jessica's journey?????
Anyway, goodbye until next time.

Xx- Cruelty💋

Also if you can't tell, the pic above is my favorite of Ryan lol.