Calling All Boys (Queen)

Unanswered Questions.

Freddie's P.O.V.

"If there is anyone here who believes that these two people should not be married today, please, speak now..."

Say something, Freddie.
Say something.

But I looked on, I could make no words leave my dry mouth, however much I wanted to put a stop to this god awful ceremony, stop them from saying 'I do'.

There were lots of people dressed up to the high heavens all around me, friends, family, strangers, adults and children, women in glorious dresses and men in beautiful suits, all sat, watching, staring at the two people in front of us, all of them with sickly smiles on their faces.

But I couldn't look up at them, my eyes kept down, looking at the floor. Not being able to and not wanting to spectate what was going on in front of me.

I didn't even know how I had found myself in this situation, how I had been persuaded to attend...I never wanted to come, but I knew I should, deep down I knew I should attend. But it was something I didn't want to witness.

Playing back the memories in my head...this was all wrong, this was all so very wrong.

My loud and busy thoughts kept me distracted throughout their vows, not allowing me to hear them, for which I was grateful for.

But the next thing I knew, people were on their feet, grinning, clapping their hands and cheering...

"I now pronounce you, man and wife. You may kiss the bride!"

I physically winced as those words left the vicars mouth, the words echoing in my ears and if you could hear when hearts break, you would have heard the almighty crack of mine breaking as I watched their first kiss as man and wife, having to tear my eyes away and take a deep and shaky breath in order to stop tears rolling down my cheeks or questions leaving my mouth.

But something made me silently watch them walk down the aisle together, hand in hand as paper confetti shaped like love hearts and flowers was thrown over them and their smiles were bigger than the world whilst the church bells rang.

A photographer running after them, capturing this moment and their smiles forever.

Yet all I wanted to do was erase this moment from my memories...forever.

But all I could do was helplessly watch on, I didn't want to, but my eyes wouldn't stray...my heart in absolute agony as I watched Brian walk away with his new wife.

I felt a hand squeeze my arm and I looked to see Roger glancing at me, "Okay?" he mouthed, silently, but I could only answer him with a halfhearted, fake smile. If I was to try and speak, my voice would crack and I would end up in hysterics.

I still didn't understand how any of this had happened, and that hurt, it hurt so fucking much.

Only six months ago were me and Brian still in a happy and loved up relationship together, I thought we were invincible and nothing could break us...I really thought he was going to be the one who I was going to spend the rest of my life with.

But that's all changed now. He left me, ran off with somebody else and now he's married, to a woman.

I didn't understand and nor do I think he does, but she obviously gives him something that I never did...which baffles me because I always made sure I gave him my all...and I would do it all over again if it meant I could have him back with me.

But today I watched the love of my life leave me forever, there was no way of getting him back, no opportunity of a second chance, he was married, locked down...till death do them part...