Calling All Boys (Queen)

Bitterly Jealous.

Roger's P.O.V.

Staring down at the bustling streets, the nightlife in full swing, brightly coloured lights, muffled music, drunken people shouting absolute nonsense at the top of their lungs.

I wonder if Freddie was still down there? I felt bad for storming off like that, felt hugely guilty at saying all of that to him, I should have known better, he was already fragile and me saying that was likely to push him over the edge, make him do something stupid.

On one hand, I felt he needed to hear it, that nobody will be interested if he keeps up with his current lifestyle choices, but that also, even though he thinks he doesn't have anyone, he actually has plenty of people, closer to him than he thinks.

Like me.

But he didn't care about that.
All he cared about was Brian, why the guitarist left him for a woman and making him pay, getting his revenge.

I'd buried my feelings for Freddie deep down, locked them away in the pit of my brain...I had already jeopardised Freddie's and Brian's relationship early on by getting bitterly jealous that Fred wasn't giving me as much attention as he used to...and then me stupidly admitting to him that I did in fact...have a bit of a pathetic crush on him...and even making the huge mistake of kissing him whilst myself and John were going through our breakup.

But I promised myself I wouldn't ever bring it up again, wouldn't let it show, not at least while Freddie and Brian were together because as much as I was still jealous...I could tell just how in love they were and I didn't want to come in between that.

I heard a quiet knock on my hotel door and rushed over to answer it.

"Hey, Rog...everything okay?" The sweet, friendly voice of Deaky greeted me and I gave him a warm smile.

"Hi, Deaks...Yeah, yeah, everything's fine. What are you doing back so early?" I asked, expecting him to stay out a lot longer and keep an eye on Freddie.

He chuckled, "I wanted to come back and check on you, besides, Freddie didn't want us there anyway. He's okay on his own you know, Rog. He might be stupid and reckless but if you think about it, he's always come home afterwards." Deaky said, quietly.

I knew that, I knew that no matter how fucking stupid Freddie could be, he'd always come home. I knew he didn't need us to keep an eye on him when he goes out and I knew he hated us acting like his shadows...we were just trying to make him see the light his was missing.

And maybe I was trying to get a little closer to him in the process...

"I know...I just worry about him..." I giggled a little.

I felt Johns hand on my shoulder, "I know, we all bloody do. And whatever you said to him in the club seemed like it knocked his confidence slightly." John chuckled.

My eyes widened, "What do you mean?"

"Well, he made out as if it should've been him that stormed off offended because of what you said to him. Not the other way round." John cheekily grinned.

I smiled bashfully, looking down at the floor, "I guess I was a little harsh on him...I think he needed to hear it though!"

"Maybe, what did Fred actually say to you?" Deaks asked.

I sighed a little uncomfortably, "Something like...I should try getting laid too because...I-I'm too uptight?"

John nodded suspiciously and stepped back, trying to hide a smile, "He might be onto something there, Rog...but anyway, I just wanted to check on you, I'm going to hit the hay and go to bed, try and get some sleep, Roger. Don't wait up for him like you usually do...he might not even be back until tomorrow afternoon." He called as he made his way down the corridor to his hotel room.

I smiled and waved at him, "You're not supposed to take his side! But, I won't...night, Deaks!" I called after him, chuckling  and slightly embarrassed, I watched as he shut his door.

I let out a loud sigh...that was a lie. Of course I'd stay up and wait for Freddie...I did it every time he went out, I couldn't help but worry about where he was or what he could be doing and I wouldn't let myself relax until I heard him come in, usually when the sun had already started to rise again.

I couldn't help it. He meant too much to me.

I returned to my room, looking around it, not quite sure what to do with myself.

John had more trust in Freddie than he probably should have, I guess he thought he could be stupid, but would never take it too far...but I've seen different, I know Freddie can be dangerous sometimes.

But then again, maybe our frontman was right? Maybe I did need to let loose a little? Since him and Brian broke up and Freddie has spiralled out of control again, I've been physically and mentally unable to relax...but I wasn't so sure about the getting laid part...but then again, I've not had a proper sexual partner since John.

Sure, I've had my share of one night stands but nothing meaningful.

But it had been a while.

I quickly removed those thoughts from my head and poured myself a little whiskey, to ease my mind and hopefully kickstart the slumber.

I decided to get into bed, to relax a little, although I wouldn't be going to sleep anytime soon, Freddie's room was only across the hall from mine and I would easily be able to hear him return when he does...be that, alone, or not.

Truthfully? I did get jealous when Freddie brought home a stranger to have a one night stand with. I didn't like to admit to myself, but I did guiltily wish that it was me that he dragged back into his hotel room and did whatever he did.

I pulled the covers up and over my pyjama clad body and propped up the pillows to lay back against, sliding a magazine off of the bedside table and mindlessly flicked through the uninteresting pages for twenty minutes or so.

That was, until my ears perked up a little and my eyes tore away from its boring pages, I heard some kind of muffled commotion coming from the corridor outside, very close.

I jumped out of bed quickly, pressing my ear against the door and intently listened.

I could hear Freddie's throaty chuckle as the key made the lock in the door click.

He was back...and he certainly wasn't alone.

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Hi lovelies, so sorry for keeping you waiting for this update, I'm unbelievably  busy right now!
Also I'm sorry this is shorter than previous parts but I may have to make shorter parts a thing to be able to keep up with regular updates if that's okay with you!
One more thing, thank you so much to all the people who wished me a happy birthday the other week, that was cute <3