Losers' Club //Richie Tozier//

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Everyone was working at this early hour and I raked my entire closet and my drawers for my clothes. Dash laid on my bed watching my every move.

I only got to pack one suit case two days ago and after that I got a bit lazy and I left everything to be finished today. I folded my favorite pair of jeans and set them gently on top of the rest of my clothes.

I heard a hard knock on the front door and I looked back at Dash like she was going to tell me who it was.

I ran downstairs and walked over to the door. I peaked through a small window and felt a bit confused. I opened the door and looked at the beautiful green eyes I've become too familiar with.

"H-hi." He said quietly.

"Hey Bill." I responded as I opened the door wider.

He walked in and was immediately greeted by Dash waging her tail and jumping on him.

Bill let out small giggles as he closed his eyes. I couldn't help but smile too.

"S-she's really fri-friendly."

I nodded my head, "very."  I giggled, "What are you doing here?" I asked as I began to walk up the stairs. As I was halfway up the stairs I looked back and noticed Bill was still at the bottom, "What are you doing down there?" I asked.

"I-I... um..."

"You can come up to my room." I said with a small chuckle, "I've been to yours." I said as I smiled slightly.

I saw his cheeks turn a dark shade of red as he looked away grinning. He followed me upstairs and I walked into my room while Bill walked in after me.

"Y-you're going on a t-trip?" He asked as he looked at my suitcases.

I forgot about this shit. I took in a deep breath as I turned around to look at him, "No... I'm actually leaving Bill." I said very quietly.

He widened his eyes, "y-you're lea-leaving Derry?!"

I nodded my head slowly as I looked away, "Yeah... I'm leaving with Isabelle."

"W-why?" He asked as he licked his lips.

"I can't be here." I said honestly, "I feel like I'm losing my fucking mind and with that thing... how can I not leave when I have the chance?" I asked as I felt the tears form in my eyes.

"C-cole." He began, "W-we have t-to stay to-together." He said as his eyes became frightened and worried.

"Together? Bill we've split apart." I chuckled sarcastically, "I don't want such a great fucking opportunity go to shit. Trust me... if I could help you or even take you with me, I would."

"D-don't le-leave." He pleaded.

"You're stutter got worse, are you okay?" I asked as I put my hand on his shoulder.

"I-I'm fi-fine." He said as he backed away, "w-we were suppose t-t-to stay together."

I sighed as I looked away, "After all that has happened-"

"Y-you're not the o-only one t-that's been t-through hell, you k-know?" He asked angrily, "b-but instead of f-fighting your p-problems... y-you're running away f-from them."

"Bill it's no secret that I'm the one that's been the most afraid though out this experience... even Eddie is braver than me and that's saying a lot! I'm scared of the dark, I'm scared of drowning, I'm scared of people leaving me, I'm scared of monsters, I'm scared of everything and I only put this tough girl act just so you guys won't see right through me. I want to leave Derry and never come back."

"C-Cole, we're all s-scared... It doesn't m-matter who's more scared o-o-or who's braver. W-what matters is that w-we stay together."

I looked down at my feet before looking back at Bill, "I'm sorry."

He looked at me with sad and watery eyes. I took in a deep breath as I looked away. Then the phone rang loudly through out the house.

I walked past Bill and jogged down stairs. I walked into the living room and picked up the phone.

The call wasn't something I was expecting. It wasn't something hat crossed my mind either. I never thought that I would have to face reality. It's not like I've been living in a fairy tale land either but this... this was worse than a nightmare. It's hell.

I felt my heart sink to my feet as I fell to my knees without realizing it. I closed my eyes as my forehead pressed against the table that held the phone and a nice flower vase without flowers.

I took in every work and for a second I thought I've been in this position for over an hour but it hasn't even been two minutes. I felt something inside of me that made my organs tightened and my eyes burned like they had just been sprayed with lemon juice.

I hanged up the phone after I mumbled a quick thank you and let out a shaky breath as I covered my face with my hands.

"Cole?" A soft voice asked behind me. Soft as in the kind of I-don't-want-to-make-any-sudden-moves-because-I think-you-might-shatter-into-a-thousand-pieces soft.

I forgot that Bill was still in my house. I quickly wiped my extreamly watery eyes and stood up. I turned around to face him with a slight smile.

"I forgot you were still here." I admitted.

He looked concern, "A-are you ok-okay?" He asked as he took a few steps closer.

I nodded my head as my bottom lip began to quicker, "of-" my voice cracked as I tried to speak, "of course." I said quietly.

"W-who was that o-on the phone?" He asked.

I shook my head side to side, "no one important." I said as I licked my lips.

"C-cole... you're not okay." He said quietly, "w-what happened?" He asked.

I could feel my oxygen leaving my body slowly and I couldn't take in a deep breath because I felt like it would be a huge gasp and I would just begin to cry.

"Nothing Bill." I said as I looked away, "I have to do a few things but it was really nice of you to stop by." I said as I slowly began to walk over to the front door.

"A-are you sure you're o-okay?" He asked. I nodded my head and opened the door for him,

"Is this goodbye?" He asked.

I shook my head and leaned in to kiss his cheek softly. He walked out but stopped to turn around to look at me one last time before leaving.

I closed the door and instantly broke down crying into my hands.

This is hell.

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