Davekat Oneshots

You're Worth It

pov Karkat
Today's the day.... I'm going to do it. Even if it's the last thing I do. I'm going to tell Dave Strider.... that I have a crush on him. That I have for the past year. That every time we hang out I desperately wish I could embrace his hand with my, lean up close into his side while watching romcoms, kiss him gently as he pulls me close to him... We've been best friends for the past two years and I feel for that douche for some reason.
He's always fake flirting with me and it drives me insane. I've never known when to make a move because I've always assumed he's had feelings for John. Whenever he's not hanging out with me he's with him.
It makes me crazy jealous knowing John could possibly be replacing me. The thought of it drives me insane.
I already texted Strider earlier asking if he'd like to come hang out and he of course accepted. The only thing he mentioned was how John had asked him to hang out so he'd have to leave a bit early.
I think John likes Dave. He constantly claims no homo *whatever the living fuck that means* but seeing how close he gets with Dave... it's so obvious.
The stress it's caused me has driven me to certain depths of pain. My life was worse enough before as it was but Dave was always someone who made me feel like living was worth it.
I cut myself constantly and the only person who knows is Dave. He worries about me a lot which I see no reason for him to. I deserve the pain I bring upon myself.
Life along makes me depressed. Most people treat me like an outcast because of my blood color causing me to think I'm a freak, which I am. Before I met Dave I was ready to kill myself. I was going to do it too if he hadn't stopped me that day on the bridge... I was so close to jumping into the wild crashing waves below me preparing to hit sharp rocks and taking me out of my misery.
But he just... stood there... and we talked.
It's like he was the first person who ever... understood me. He made me feel something I hadn't felt in a long time... hope.
After that our friendship grew quickly as I soon fell for him. I may still be suicidal but I know my boundaries.
I hear a knock at the door and I stand up from the couch I was once sitting on leaving the warmth of my blanket behind.
I approach the door and open it slowly revealing a smirking Strider that's leaned up against my door frame.
"Hey there karkles"
"Shut the fuck up and just enter the god damn house"
I lazily walk back over to the couch where I once layed and I heard Dave close the door and approach me.
"Well nice to see you too you grump"
I give him a sarcastic smile before flipping him off and cuddling closer to my blanket.
"Judging on how you're acting now I'm going to assume you're in a romcom kind of mood."
I give a nod and he walks off to the kitchen to make the pop corn and I smile to myself thinking about how well he knows me... He can judge the exact thing I want to do just by seeing my actions.
After a few minutes of flipping through movies on Netflix I decide on '13 Going on 30'. Dave walks back into the room holding a bowl of pop corn and part of me gags at the smell of it knowing I can't really remember the last time I had real food to eat.
I didn't need food... it only makes me fat. No one really knows about me not eating, not even Dave. I figured if I just didn't tell anyone it would make everyone's life easier. He's almost caught note of it multiple times but I always have a back up reasonor more of excuse.
Dave motioned me to move over since my body was covering the whole couch. I shook my head before sticking my tongue out at him.
He gave a small laugh causing me to smile a bit before I shook my head once again.
"Kitkat don't make me move you myself. We can do this the hard way or the easy way."
"Oh fuck you Strider."
"Name a time and place karkles" I noticed movement behind Dave's shades so I'm assuming he winked at me and my face went to a bright candy red before I flipped him off trying to brush off his comment.
"Guess we're doing this the hard way then."
Dave set the bowl of pop corn down on the table in front of the tv before he picked me up bridal style in his arms and setting the blanket to the side.
I tried struggling but he was too damn strong for me to wiggle myself free.
"Gog dammit Strider put me the fuck down"
Dave sat down on one of the corners of the couch and he sat me right next to him.
I tried moving back to the other open space but Dave held me in place before he reached over my small figure to grab the blanket and he put it over the two of us.
"Stop struggling kitten. You know you lost and you're not goin anywhere so just start the movie."
I sighed in failure before clicking play on the movie and trying to keep my eyes on the screen.
After a few minutes into the movie I became more relaxed and layed my head into Dave's side without thinking. I felt a hand reach up into my hair and slowly started petting me.
Oh gog ohgog Okokok don't do it... just don't pur-
Purrs start escaping my lips as I lean my head closer to Dave and I mentally face palm myself for being such an idiot.
The warmth of Dave's body so close to mine and the relaxation of my hair being pet causes me to drift to sleep in his arms.
~Time skip brought to you by every Davekat shipper ever~
I wake up to the sound of someone's phone going off and I gently open my eyelids observing the areas around me. I life my head to see I was laying in Dave's lap with the blanket wrapped around me. I blush from slight embarrassment before looking over at him as he talks on the phone.
Once he hangs up he shoves his phone in his pocket and looks over to what I assume is my direction.
"Hey karkles I gotta get goin I guess John has something else going on today so he was hoping I could come over a bit more early."
"Oh yea that's fine I don't care. How long was I asleep for?"
I scratch the top of my head before pulling my sleeves further down.
"Uhhh well after the first movie was over I picked some different one and that just finished so only like 4 hours"
"Holy shit and why didn't you wake me you fuckass?"
"I didn't want to wake you because I liked you being in my arms and thought you looked adorable."
I roll my eyes as he smirks at me.
"Whatever. Get the fuck out of my house now. You don't want to keep John waiting."
Dave gets up before quickly putting his shoes on and walking out the door giving me a goodbye.
I let out a long sigh as I hear my stomach growl.
"Oh shut the fuck up. You don't need to eat you fat piece of shit. If you ever want dave to actually like you like you like him then you'd be trying harder. You're never going to be good enough. You're worthless... trash... that deserves to be dead."
I shake my head as tears slowly stream down my cheeks.
I've always thought how one person could hate the selves so much that they'd be driven to just end it all.... but maybe they do it because they'd be doing the world a favor.
I stand up from the couch before entering my bathroom and closing the door behind me.
I look quickly through my cabinets before finding the one out of two things that gives me actually feelings in this cruel world.
I roll up my sleeve before taking the sharp piece of metal people refer to as razors and sticking it into my skin. I drag it down into a straight line watching as candy red blood leaves my light grey skin.
"You ugly, fat, stupid, piece of shit."
I lift the cold metal up before starting over in a new area.
I continue to let out muffled sobs of anger, depression, and confusion as I tear into my skin.
pov Dave
As I exited the small trolls house being met with cold fall air I think about how I was going to pull this off. I wanted to tell Karkat how I felt about him today. I've had a huge crush on him ever since the day I met him. He's been my everything and with the shitty life he's been forced to live I've always wanted to be his everything.
I know I told him I was going to johns house but I was actually going to stop by the follow shop and get him a bouquet of his favorite roses and tell him. I thought it would be perfect since Karkat loves romantic gestures I'm just scared of him rejecting me.
I love when Karkles and I have moments like we did inside with him snuggled up close me with and I get to pet his hair as he lets out cute purrs. It's sooo fucking adorable it basically kills me.
Once I approach my car I go to reach for my keys and realize they aren't there. I let out a sigh of annoyance.
Quickly, I walk back up to Karkat's door reopening it quietly assuming he must have fallen back asleep on the couch.
As I enter his house and go to grab my keys I take notice that Karkat isn't in the couch anymore and I walk around searching for him.
Once I hear muffled sobs coming from his bathroom my instincts switch to protective mode. I throw my keys back down onto the counter before walking to the bathroom door.
Not caring for anything except Karkat's safety I slam the door open and I'm faced with Karkat leaned up to his bathtub holding a razor to his wrist.
My eyes go wide and he looks over at me attempting to make eye contact.
I rush over taking the piece of metal out of his hands.
"K-karkles it isn't worth it. We talked about this. Are you ok? How are you feeling? Where's the wraps at? Let me see your wrists."
Karkat looks down to the floor as I frantically walk around finding supplies to help heal the mess the small troll put upon himself.
"I-I wanna d-die... I c-can't anymore.."
I inhaled a sharp breath before looking down at the mentally and physically injured troll.
"N-no... don't say that..."
He shakes his head as if he's trying to tell the dark thoughts in his head to set him free from the prison they've chained him to.
"You can't..."
"I'm not worth the air I breathe..."
I feel tears start to run down from my eyes.
"That's it." I take my shades off my face before lifting Karkat's head so he's looking into my eyes and his widen.
"Karkat Vantas. I can not accept you talking about stuff like this. Especially in front of someone who cares about you so god damn much! I've been with you since the first attempt. You bring such darkness to yourself when you don't deserve it. I don't see what's so imperfect. I love every fucking thing about you. Your eyes, your freckles that dance across your face, the way you get so fired up over small things, your hair, your skin, your blood color, your sweet personality, and the way you smile when I'm around because I know that throughout all the pain and suffering you've gone through there's this person I fell in love with because you're so much more different than other people. It seems you view that as such a bad thing which I don't understand because I see it as such an amazing thing. If anyone has ever told you to change in anyway then they are idiots and don't even deserve to know someone as cute, adorable, sweet, inspirational, and loveable as you. God I love you Karkat. I knew I loved you the day we met. You didn't jump... I knew you didn't jump for a reason. We all have something to live for and I want to be your something. I want to be there so Ic an catch you when you fall. I want to kiss you, hug you, or even hold you whenever I have the chance to. I want to call you mine..."
Tears were falling down my face as I finished my last sentence and Karkat was still staring into my eyes.
"Karkles... we all have our imperfections. But I love you even more for every single one of yours. You may say you're broken. But you're more than fixable. Just let me heal you karks... and I promise... I won't let anyone hurt you."
I notice tears falling down Karkat's face too. He looks down at his wrapped wrists before looking back into my crimson red eyes. He gives a smile before nodding his head yes and pulling me into his arms.
The two of us fall to the floor before I connect his soft, light grey lips to mine. I hug the small troll even tighter before we sit up and let go of each other.
"You may think you aren't but... you're perfect to me... You're more than worth it Karkat and I love you so much..."
"I'm finally yours..." I hear him gently say looking back up at me with a smile on his face.
"You've always been mine and I know I've always been yours."
I gently kiss him before helping him up off the floor. We exit the bathroom and I close the door behind us. I pick Karkat up and he wraps his legs around my waist and he lays his head in the crook of my neck.
No more pain. And no more suffering. He's worth every battle I've ever had to fight for him, every sleepless night I've had thinking of him, every piece of hope I've longed to ever have just to be with him.
He's my everything and I'm his everything.
Hell, even the wait was worth it.

(A/N yEeT this chapter was long.... so sorry... but I had this big thing of energy to just WRITE. Mhm mhm I have nothing else to say. I should really tag the triggers in the beginning but... it's late... and I'm tired... soooo..... mhmmmm..... also I don't reread these things cuz I'm lazy so if there's spelling mistakes or grammar... sorry..?
-Randal <3

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