Davekat Oneshots

Suicide (Part Two)

Pov Dave
Once I gave Karkat a hug goodbye I step outside walking over to my truck.
I don't know what it was but Karkat just seemed... so off... It's like every smile he made or every time he laughed it was so cold and fake. It scared me...
I don't know what's been going on with him lately and I hate myself for not knowing but whatever it is I want to be there for him.
I still remember the first time I met Karkat...
~Le flashback~
I glance up from my phone when I hear the store's door ringer go off. I look up to see a small cute troll enter the café.
He walks up to the counter where I'm standing by the cash register. I give him a smirk and he smiles up at me.
"Anything I can help ya with cutie?" I send a wink his way even though he most likely wasn't able to tell from my shades.
I see his face turn a shade of red and I smile.
While waiting for an answer I scan over his face noticing his light grey skin, the freckles that were perfectly placed across his face, the grey I noticed in his eyes, his messy hair that was placed on his head, the two small horns that stuck out of the ball of fluff, and the rest of his short figured that stood at least four inches below me.
"Well fuckass first off I'm not a cutie so don't call me that. And second just a regular coffee please."
I laugh at the nickname he gave me before nodding.
"And may I have the honors of asking you your name?"
I see him roll his eyes at me as I pull out one of the coffee cups and grab a marker to write his name down with.
"Karkat, Karkat Vantas. And it's nice to meet you Dave."
I look confused for a second before remembering I have my name tag on. I take the cap off of the marker before writing his order down and scribbling down my number along with a small note.
He pays and goes to sit down before I get one of the other guys who's up here helping me to make his coffee as I serve the next customer.
Once his name is called up to receive his drink he takes a look at what I wrote down and out of the corner of my eye I see him smile and my heart just... stops...
~End of le flashback~
It wasn't even later that day he texted me. I was so happy and excited and we talked for just hours on end.
I'd never felt that kind of happiness before and I was actually interested in asking him out. But then I met John.
He didn't make me as happy as Karkat did but when I figured Karkat wasn't interested I gave up hope.
I know this sounds really bad to say but something just didn't feel right when I purposed to John....
And ever since the past two months or so Karkat has just been so distant from not just me, but everybody.
I remember so vividly the look of disappointment and sadness on Karkat's face when I first told him I was going out with someone.
Everything stayed the same after that but he just seemed to grow away from me. I thought I lost my best friend... I've wanted to say something and that was what I was going to do today but I didn't have the chance...
I know more than anything part of me is in love with Karkat and those feelings will never change but I just... I can't do that to John...
I can't keep this to myself anymore... I just I have to tell him.
I pull out my phone and click Karkat's contact name and call him.
~ring.... ring..... ring....~
"I'm sorry but -Karkat Vantas- is unavailable right now. Please leave a message after the beep."
I hang up before calling again but this time I just go straight to voicemail. For some reason I get a really bad feeling in my stomach so I text him instead.
'Hey karkles you there?'
'I was wondering if I could talk to you at your house'
'I know you said you were busy but this is important'
'Karkat?'
'Kitten you there?'
My heart starts to speed up and I become more worried. I think back to how upset and done Karkat seemed with everything and my mind automatically thinks to one of the worse possibilities.
I switch the contact to Kanaya before calling her and I start sprinting over to his house.
"Hello? Dave? What do you need I'm bu-"
"Kanaya I think something's wrong with Karkat I was talking to him earlier and when he left he seemed so depressed like he has the past month or so and now he isn't answering my calls or texts and I'm freaking out."
"Ok. Assuming you're already making your way to his house I'll be there in five."
I hang up the phone before I shove it back into my pocket and come to a quick spot when I approach Karkat's door.
I look to see his car is here and his living room lights are on along with the T.V.
I knock loudly on the door praying that he'd come and answer and I could just hold him in my arms and tell him everything will be alright.
After a minute or so of no answer I knock again but even louder.
With no answer yet again I check the door to see if it's unlocked in which it is. I slam the door open and run into the house.
"Karkat? Are you here? Karkat?!"
I pace around his downstairs searching every room hoping he'd be in one of them curled up with blankets peacefully sleeping.
After checking all the rooms I run upstairs and check the bathroom to see nothing. I then walk over to his bedroom door which is closed and knock gently.
"Kitten are you in here?"
When I hear no answer I quietly open the door and step into his room.
Once I enter I feel my heart stop. Not like the day it did when I first met him. A different kind of stop. The kind where you feel like your whole world has just been ripped away from you and there was nothing you could do about it.
I look in front of me and see a chair pushed to the ground and my Karkat hung up from a rope that was fiercely tied around his neck.
I push my arms into my chest as I let out a loud sob.
I look up at his lifeless body as he just... hangs there... I pull my shades off of my face and they fall to the floor giving me an even clearer look of his pale grey skin, the bruises contained around his neck, the hundreds of cuts around his wrists, stomach, and legs, and his closed eyes as his arms and legs dangle from the rope his neck was tied from.
Tears start falling from my eyes quickly.
"No no no no Karkat no you didn't... no karkles please KARKAT"
I run over to him and pull the rope down as he falls to the floor and I search for a pulse... I search for anything....
"Please you have to be ok. No. You can't die. Karkat I love you please~"
I continue to sob before I hear a gasp from behind me and I turn to see Kanaya. I shake my head back and forth as she runs towards me with a loud half scream
"K-kaRKAT" She joins me on the floor pulling him out of my arms into hers
"No- dear it's ok love. I've c-called th-the police j-j-just hang on... help is on the way"
"Kanaya... he's g-go-gone"
She looks up at me with pure pain in her eyes and I pull my hands into my face crying even more
I didn't say it soon enough. This is my fault. He's dead because of me. I didn't tell him how I actually felt. He should've known every time I saw him walk into a room he made me smile or gave me butterflies. He should've known I loved every single last nickname he ever gave me, or how I loved how his freckles were perfectly placed on his face, or how he was my world and everything around it.
All of a sudden I'm thrown back to reality when an ambulance is rushed in and trying to revive his breath is some way and searching for some type of life.
I feel Kanaya kneel down next to me and see even more tears falling from her face as she hands me a note....
I read through the paper before crying even more.
"H-he loved me... Ever since-" I throw my fists to the ground
"This is all m-my fault."
Kanaya embraces me into a hug shaking her head saying sweet things to me but all I can do is picture Karkat's lifeless body as I entered his room.
I should've told him sooner... He should've known that his life was more than worth it.
Suicide should've never been his answer.

A/N welp this was trash. Tbh I kinda hate this oneshot. It's somewhat decent but meh. I hope you guys like it at least but yea I did get kinda emotional through most of writing this. You guys should know I think you're all amazing and if you ever need to talk I'm here for you. Please guys Suicide is never the answer and it's not worth it. So many people love you... So much more than you think. Just stay strong. Once again hope you guys liked part two for this. Finals for school start on Tuesday so I'll try to be active as much as I can. It's like 12:30amish and I promised future babe I'd go to sleep awhile ago.... but... I wanted to write... so I iS sorry love... I shall go sleep now. Gnite lovelies and stay strong and once again until next timeee!!
-Randal <3

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